trying to ´find myself´, but dunno where to look??

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All I can say man, is try to find out who you are. Fuck meditation, religion, philosophy, drugs. Know who you are, how your personality is. And once you solidify that idea, simply BE it.

Meditation is simply smiling, and letting that energy sit with you all day long. Don't ever let go of that smile. But you can read 1000 books and never be able to do that. Simply BE, and notice when you are not being whatever you are trying to be. Be nice, be joyful, kind, and notice when you're not.

The answers will come to you. But first you have to set the scheme in your brain so your senses pick up signals from the universe.

 

you don’t have to fuck them all...learn, of course about yourself, but in the process of getting to know yourself feel free to read about other religions or anything you are curious about for that matter. i’m glad to hear you say you think there is truth in many religions, very wise...because there are different paths for different people. If you want, read sacred texts or excerpts from texts of various religions in order to broaden horizons. you may perhaps return to christianity, and if you do you might feel deeper affiliation with the religion. you might not. whatever happens, the more parallels you see the better because it helps to understand others and promotes acceptance. explore the world and yourself at the same time.

 

Well a lot of people have been through that. I'd say the thing is to look at Christianity, and try to isolate exactly what it is that makes you uncomfortable. Is it absolutely central to the teachings? Or just stuff which humans have come up with over the centuries? Is it just a question of interpretation?

Also it can be a useful to look into different spiritual paths etc, as that will help you get a broad overview. Only you can decide what you believe, and what you want to follow.

It takes time to get deep into oneself. Give yourself time.
Periods of quiet reflection help - it doesn't have to be any structured form of meditation.
If you believe in God or a higher power, pray for guidance.

 

you could always try the ayahuasca down there. its very much a part of the spiritual culture in the places your traveling right now. your sure to know yourself in a new way after that.

 

just be what you are.
you will recognize yourself in certain experiences and in some you won't. build on the knowledge you have of yourself. you are you and always will be.

 

g

 

May I ask, why did you think leaving England would help you find yourself?

 

Go Find yourself
Smoke DMT
Face the fury
Of A God

 

We're the same age and I'm probably as confused as you are about the meaning of all this, if any, but for what it's worth, here are some thoughts from another(non-traditional) Christian (Strictly my own half-baked opinions, to take, leave, or sample). Maybe you're trying too hard, by conceptualizing self-discovery as a quest for something tangible that somebody else can steer you to. Jesus said we have to lose our selves to find ourselves. The Buddha taught that the self is itself an illusion. Be in the moment, notice the experiences around you, experience the beauty in nature, other people, and God. As Jesus said in the the Gospel of Thomas, "the kingdom of Heaven is spread out everywhere around us and people do not see it." God is process. The universe isn't necessarily kind or fair, but I think it can be beautiful if you look at it the right way. Studying other religions and philosophies is great, but full of landmines, because there are so many groups (including lots of Christian churches) with mind-crippling doctrines that purport to give you meaning if you just swallow their views and turn off your mind. Being unable to find yourself has the advantage of freedom to define or redefine yourself in whatever way you find meaningful. You might read Viktor Frankl's Man's Search for Meaning. Your existential angst may be uncomfortable, but your situation is enviable, because you are open to new possibilities and you have most of your life ahead of you (inshallah). The main danger is trying too hard to escape from freedom.

 

I would recommend you look into Ayahuasca too. Try this:

http://www.soga-del-alma.org/

 

y

 

q

 

You want to find yourself visually, look in a mirror.

You want to find yourself auditoraly, be vocal.

You want to find yourself mentally, think.

You want to find yourself physically, feel.

Spiritually.....

You are, that's enough to know that you've already found yourself. What you are has already been decided, you're yet another intricate part of existence (homo sapien by human definition). Who you are is to be determined over your life, regardless of whether or not you feel you have "discovered yourself." We need not know these things, as we never (not in our lifetime) will truly know who we are. With the progression of our humanly constructed concept of "time" we discover new things about ourselves constantly. What constitutes "us" is constantly in flux. Things change and we are yet just another "thing" in this existence. If you allow yourself to be over concerned with thoughts such as this, then you'll never truly allow yourself to "be." It is not necessary for you to be inclined to want to know yourself, you are you...is that not enough? Accept what is and do not deny that of what you wish was not. Rather invoke the constant....change if you feel it is a necessity to survival. Otherwise do not become distraught over these thoughts, we all have them...it's the rather unfortunate side affect of being able to form cognitive thought.

 

if you are trying to find yourself there is only one person you can turn to, YOU.

 

I don't think there is anything to add to that. It is the solution!