I had abstained for three months, except for lighting up once. Training, eating right, challenging myself and learning new things, I felt very sharp and alert. I figured it was time to reward myself as well as conduct a little experiment, and bought myself five grams of fine herb. I was determined not to let it get in the way of my training or my other goals from the getgo; it was supposed to be an addition to my life, not a replacement for the positive lifestyle I had going. And so I smoked, first on the Saturday I bought the herb, the following Sunday I neglected social events to get stoned and play video games, every day through the week my main desire when I got home from work was to blaze and then do non-productive shit, like sit on the forums, play video games, watch TV shows. Waking up the first few days was easy, I was still energetic and felt awake right away. After four or five days, however, this changed and I began to feel more and more sapped, took to drinking coffee at work (I only drink coffee if I'm exceptionally tired) and today I just felt weary. I love being stoned. It's a great feeling, especially in the park in the sun, when pissing away a bit of time on a lazy Sunday afternoon. But it is obvious to me that the desire for more, constantly wanting to light up, gets the best of me every time. It seems I am unable to keep weed in my life without letting it take over. If I have access, I endulge in excess. Experiment failed. Once more, but this time beyond any doubt, I realize it does me no favors in any regard, and from now on I will only buy it along with psychedelics.
im exactly where you are man. i cant stop smoking if i have it, just day in day out. i picked up a quarter oz a week ago and im already down to the last few bowls, ive gained noticeable weight, lost noticeable lung capacity, and am more lazy definetely. i as well will only smoke with psychedelics or just very occasionally.
I can kinda relate, especially on the sleep part. I haven't been smoking for almost a month now, and I feel a lot more energetic, and I wake up extremely easily. When I do smoke, it's rather difficult for me to wake up. On the other hand though, I feel somewhat less productive now that I'm not smoking. I love to write, it's one of the things that keeps me going, and I find it harder to simply engage myself in writing without marijuana. I'm still not sure if I want to smoke over the summer. I know that I'll smoke when I go back to school in August. It's kinda impossible not to, considering my circle of friends and my love for marijuana... but there are pros and cons to everything I guess. I'm rather good at controlling my smoking, I can make a quarter last a month if I just smoke alone... but I still don't know if it's worth it. Waking up at 7 every morning isn't fun, and it probably will be much less fun if I'm all groggy.
For creative purposes, it's wonderful. I'm not very creative, so it just makes me lazy. I try to keep track of certain daily goals, and since I began this experiment I haven't ticked off much at all. I also feel like I'm in worse shape than I have been for a while, if only by a little. On the other hand, I just burnt that last bit down so things are pretty good at the moment.
Yeah, I don't really exercise when I smoke, but I'm just not the kind of person who can mindlessly do pushups. Luckily enough my job right now is extremely physically intensive, so it pretty much forces me into great shape. Otherwise, I'd just be a lanky bum.
I'm with inextesie, I really can't tolerate working out (lifting weights and running mainly) unless indulging in a spliff or bowl before, tried last night and was all out and it SUCKED haha, running blazed is awesome, second to running while tripping. To OP, that's awesome man that you picked up on the personal problem so quickly and didn't try to lie to yourself or justify things, hopefully your healthy lifestyle will keep you happy and the MJ/psychs every once in a while will keep you even happier.
To the OP, i know exactly what your talkin about and where your coming from. I love pot, but when i smoked every day, just felt weak, burnt out and bored, only ready to smoke more lol. my advice and what ive done, only smoke once a week and dont smoke two days in a row so you wont form a habit. i usually only blaze every saturday and it works.
Yeah, happens to me as well. I get some herb and I keep on stayin high til its gone. I dont wanna do it no mroe either, i dont like revolving my day around it honestly, its nice and I enjoy it but I think it really is best in moderation.
I was doing an excellent job of only smoking at night, after completing all my studies. Ironically enough, the pattern was disturbed when I got in disciplinary struggle and was unsure whether I would continue attending my school. I still managed to get shit done, but never returned to the ultra efficiency of those first few weeks. Anyway, my point is: Maybe don't smoke until after you've done your productive things for the day. That way, it can't disrupt them. But if you really feel there is no way for you to fit cannabis in your life without affecting other parts of it, there's no shame in that. In fact, you deserve to be commended for being so honest with yourself and doing what is right for you.
