Hello, this is a relatively new experience for myself; opening up to individuals whether it be in person or over the a message board, such as Hip Forums. I feel this may help me overcome the rut I'm currently in. At the age of 15 or so, I guess I could say I was the humorous alpha male of the social group I was involved in along with being relatively intelligent. Life was swell. However, this came to and end over the next few years where I just lost my confidence in myself, I couldn't distinguish any positive qualities I possessed bar the ability to attract a variety of beautiful women. The grades I achieved at school and to this very day are considerably under what I believe I could achieve and i foresee myself as being a failure not being able to overcome the clear inability to focus, revise or even understand a majority of subject topics that I am/was studying. I am struggling to identify why I find it difficult to communicate with individuals, even the friends I deemed my best friends throughout my teens and as it stands now I don't really have a close group of friends. The odd few days or week, I will be how I envisage myself, the confident comical social person I once was but this as I said only lasts a brief period of time and then I revert back to my 'normal' self. I also find it incredibly difficult to laugh, which I'm baffled by as this was never a problem when I was in my young teens. I just have to instate a series of fake laughs to remove myself from a foreseeable awkward experience which for me, isn't a thing I wish to do. However, once I'm under the influence of alcohol I laugh manically, whether this is a release due to my lack of laughing sober I'm clueless. So, I'm unsure as to where I go from here. The only thing I want from life is happiness which seems to be a rare thing for me right now. That's briefly how I am feeling as of now.. just someone to talk to, whether they've suffered from a similar situation or hasn't it would be nice to have a chat. Thank you for listening.
i have suffered from a similar exreiance my self, are you taking any sort of drugs on a regular basis, i only ask, as i was on drugs when i went through the same sort of thing that you are?
You dont need to have a haddit, or be addicted to a drug to have it affect you in a negative way, we are all differrant and our bodys react diffrently, you may only need a small amount of drugs, to make you feel the way you do, try and stay off drugs for a couple of months, and see how you feel, also if you drink, knock that on the head aswell, for a while, as most people are unaware that alchohol is one of the biggest depresants on the market. If you try this for a few months and still feel the same, then i suggest you seek proffesional help from a counseler or therapist, as you may have deeper problems you may of burried , which could also make you feel the way you do. Good luck anyway, hope you feel better soon.
yeah, quit all the drugs first thing. that might be the problem, yet i doubt it. from your op, i sense, that the drugs are just covering up what is really going down. after between 3 months to a year after being off the drugs, let us know how it is going down for you.
I appreciate the suggestions. I'll knock the drugs on the head for a number of months and see if there's an improvement.
