I lied, or I'm just confused. Depends on my mood

I have to stop over thinking things. I thought I wasn't really into it and just doing it as part of my bi adventure. Maybe that's the case. Then again, since I am desensitized to sucking his cock, not thinking it's any big deal, I have done it a few times, just to return the favor and wasn't really into doing it.
Then, there are the times when he is sucking on my cock, I can't wait to get his cock in my mouth and suck him to orgasm and one of his huge ejaculations. When I am driving home, sometimes I feel disgusted with myself, but then wonder Why? I am just having some mutual fun with a very close friend and it isn't cheating and it's with my wifes total approval, just as I approve her bi experimentation with her gf.
See what I mean, I over think it.
Where I was wondering about my feelings about it, last night I did with a hunger for his big cock. We were sitting on the floor and he was on his hands and knees, while I was on my back. As he sucked my cock, I noticed his hard cock straining in his jeans. I couldn't resist the urge to reach up, open his zipper and release his huge cock. As I pulled on it, precum began to ooze from the head. At that point, I had to have it in my mouth and moved under him, so we were in a 69.
He was sucking my cock straight up and down. I had arched my neck and his cock slid right down my throat. I am proud of my deep throat ability and so is he. He actually fukked my throat and came like that. I had the taste of his cum in my throat all night.
Know what? Im just going to enjoy it while I can and when or if I no longer have those deisres it will end. I'm not going to think about it, just enjoy it. That's why I got into it.

 

You are right! Just enjoy it don't look so deep into it. I remember when I first started fooling around with a gay friend. Started with a drunken night. I was always curious and she knew. So after heavy making out she headed south. Thats how it all began. She loved to go down on me. I always felt that I had to reurn the favor when I really wasn't in to it. Although, just like you, I would find myself wanting to taste her in my mouth while she was pleasing me. It took my a bit to realize I was no where in the wrong and I just loved the pleasure she gave me. I soon got over it and now I love eating her wet tight pink pussy whenever I can. It has been 2 years now and her and I still get out fixes from each other anytime we want. I love her. He he. :cheers2: