So shit..I took some pills a couple hours ago; I'm burnin' mad and feel like my joints are non existant. Oddly enough, I also want to die. It's not one of those periods of gratuitous tears and self hatred. I just feel utterly useless. My life as an adult is most likely going to consist of spongeing of those I concider my "friends" and not seeing a second of static reality. I've dropped out so everything is fucked, people just don't like me. Something I've grown comfortable with until the ulcer pops. I just feel like everything is pissed away. I died in the womb...I know how pathetic this is...Complaining about personal bullshit on a forum filled with people I've never meet in my life..But for some reason it brings closuer..I can't put this shit on anyones shoulders..Not that many care enough to bare it anyway.
That the thing. It's fucked. I've tried to do well in all these things I've complained about and have failed.
dood. chill the fuck out. the past few years have probably sucked for you; chances are the next few years will as well. just gotta suck it up and grit your teeth like the rest of us. i'm 18 and i don't even have a fucking life yet, so quit your bitching. *hugs*
Haha.. this is definitely the wrong place to go all emo. Things are not so bad. Do you have all your limbs? All your senses? Chromosomes? Any terrible diseases? Regular torture? Horrible disfigurement? I think you'll find you could be much worse off. Live is beautiful. Appreciate all you have, and live your life.
well i don`t think it`s pathetic at all actually. In fact it`s usually easier for most people to open up their problematic souls in front of bunch of unknown people on a forum instead of open up to someone in real life, because that hides a danger of humiliating yourself in public. here is synthetic, it`s a virtual reality and even if somebody tells you are a little, useless bastard you don`t care that much ! and on topic, i think everybody has those moments. It`s just a moment that will pass. there must be black days, so they can be bright ones. you know it`s called harmony and balance!
i feel bad for you. i know how it can be. while venting and self-medicating is comforting, its just a diversion. the truth is that you do need to take some action instead of sulking in your passivity. you are the only person who can help yourself babe
16...teenage angst. Believe me when I say, one day you will probably wake up and laugh at yourself. Until then, channel it into something creative or useful.
i had a friend who was your age, his dad committed sucide, and he was depressed. he popped pills, he thought going 2 school was useless.. etc. What HE did - did more drugs still he hit rock bottom, he went on an outing with people who he could *stand* and did a week of shrooms. after that he just kept getting better. after getting that out of his system, he knew he loved music. So he started going to concerts, and meeting NEW People. The thing about people love - is people are everywhere. Theres always a new person to talk to. Don't be shy. Just because those losers who are at your school or something dont like you, doesn't mean you can find others who do. At this concerts lucky enough he found more friends and a girl with the same interests cos their at the same concert. May i suggest, hippies are amazing. If you see someone who looks like one, talk to them. They will probably end up giving you a blaze and pat on the back in the long run. I really hope this helped.. you need HOPE :grouphug: and keep an open mind. best of luck.
actually, it's pretty amazing how many people seem to think our opinions are all-important... hahahahahahahahahaahahhahahahahahahahahhaha. unrelated: i'm going to completely lose my awesome quoting skillz now that i have this multi-quote feature to do it for me.
It says that you are from Brazil. So you speak Portuguese and can speak and write English. Sounds like you have a good head on your shoulders. Well other than being emo and a dumb fuck kid who pops pills. Yes, you are the only one who as a teenager felt weird or out of place. None of us here ever felt like that when we were teens. You case is totally unique. I have never heard such a strange thing. Go back to school dumb fuck and stay out of grandma's medicine cabinet.
