I wrote this last night and posted it over at the shroomery, I love browsing this site and figured I'd re-post it here to get some additional responses and insight, as well as making an appearance for the first time, nice to meet you all. I wasn't sure what section to put this in, but this one seems alright. I've been back home for about 2 months now. I spent the majority of 8 months being a stoner at a house where I found my spiritual self, where I first tried mushrooms, a place I consider to have very strong spiritual presense both good and bad. The story of the house goes that the woman who used to live there passed away in the back room, she was the mother of the current neighbors who still live there. I have strongly felt her presense and have fellow psychnauts who claim to have seen her, sensed her, etc. Now to tonight, I went over there for the first time since I "came back home", lately I haven't been smoking as much but I got absolutely ripped tonight from a bong hit. One of the reasons I left is because of one of my "friends" who lived there, someone who is truly a lost soul, never on the same page always worried and blaming everyone else for his own problems etc. arguing to converse etc. thinks he knows it all but really knows very very little, very bad energy guy. Don't really want to go on about him, I'm sure you get the picture. Anyways, I fall into this mind trip where I realized I was in a mind trip, partially blaming the weed but then I realize it's because lost soul over there has silenced the room with his presense. So I begin to think if I should leave, bouncing back and forth in my head (almost lucidly) between my room and my current spot on the couch. I spent a good 10-15 minutes trying to figure out what was going on and finally calmed myself enough to start conversation. My vision seemed shroom like, I was in the camera mode state where everything is very clear. My perception was defininately distorted at this point as things were slightly warping, I saw the door in the hallway appear to dissapear into the wall dozens of times in just a few seconds. My peripheral vision was going crazy, everyone was circled around me and I felt tiny, my two buddies looked pretty cool can't really explain what I mean. I've been seeing many sychronicities lately and I glanced up to see 11:44 on my cell, I showed my buddy and said "One of my favorite times of the day" He didn't see what I was talking about, and I pointed it out, but it was already 11:45. Then I get a text from my buddy Jon, (great times with this guy good stories I'll be posting in other threads I'm sure.) The time reads 11:44, so I get to show my buddy what I was talking about anyway, perfect. Fast forward to 12:00, I wake up again from my mind trip (I was gone, slightly worrying about some things much like a shroom trip). I go out, hop in my truck, roll down the windows, text my buddy Jon "I'm goin home", he wanted to meet up and chill for a bit. Turn up some music and drive home. (I'd never drive on mushrooms but I'll drive high) I turn onto the main road by my house, look in my mirror and my Jons trucks right there behind me, I'm having a blast in my mind music cranked (I'm all into SQ stereos so the low vibrations from the bass are a real nice experience). He texts me that he's picking up our buddy real quick and to meet him at the spot by my house, I get some Del Taco on the way and pull up to eat in my truck. Sure enough I hopped into his truck, glanced at my phone and saw 12:34, I smiled as my buddy in the back passes me his prized investment in glass, and I take another toke, sending my tracers/colors/open eye visuals (I think I can see energy, we'll talk about that sometime) went crazy. I get a text from a girl I know at 12:44, good energy girl I love talking to her, she's a rare one that "feels me". We made some plans and she's heading over later tonight, I glanced up at the clock while typing this and saw 1:23. I had my TV repaired not too long ago, and pretty often it makes this high pitched screaming noise when I turn in on. Last week I tried to use my "energy" to make the noise stop, I had my hand on the TV and concentrated, when I took my hand off the noise stopped. Coincidence? I hardly believe in calling anything a coincidence nowadays. Tonight, I tried again. It didn't work, so I asked my spirit guide (because I know he/she is there) to help my TV be quiet. I put my hand on the TV and took a long deep breath, in the middle of my breath the pitch changed and near the end the noise completely silenced. I sat back down, thinking over what had just happened. I think "I just did that", and the noise comes back on. I say out loud (Yeah I talk to myself, occasionally) "What, want me to do it again?". Same results, noise dies down halfway through breath, stops at the end. I sit back down, confirm again (in my reality of course ;]) that I have silenced the noise. The noise starts again. Keep in mind the time between all this is in no way consistent with the noise starting and stopping. It happens when I make it happen. I stand back up, put my hand on the TV and silence the noise once again, exact same results. When I sit back down, it starts again. And I think "Theres gotta be a better way, I don't need to stand up and actually touch the TV" So I sit there, and take a deep breath. Same results, noise dies down and then silenced. (Each time I've done this it's become easier to dull and then silence the noise, it happens quicker and quicker). I start thinking "Damn I wonder if I should post about this", and the TV "beeps" at me, or screaches loudly for a quick second. And I say out loud "Should I?" And it beeps back, consecutively a half a second a part, a few beeps. I say "Alright be quiet". And silence. So I turn on my computer, clicked one of my favorite bookmarked sites that I browse daily, and signed up to make this post. Through this I believe I've made contact with my spirit guide or some spirit, and I believe the method of taking a breath to silence my problem is a good reminder for me to just sit back and take a breath. I "suffered" from some pretty bad anxiety and panic attacks a few months ago, coming in touch further with my spiritual self has helped me manage this greatly, helping me feel weightless in this physical world. So there it is, my first post in what I hope to be many. Nice to meet you guys, I look forward to talking to some people who I hope are just as "crazy" as I am.
Nice to meet you, KW. Interesting reality wrinkles there, thanks for sharing. Yeah, you're on a spiritual path - deeply on. It can be a fascinating journey sometimes. Reminds me a little of one time 33 years ago when I ate some peyote with a couple of friends and we used our energy to make an electric cord across the room jump repeatedly. And other things too numerous to go into all in one fell swoop. Currently and for the last six years my primary spirit guide is a woman I used to work with who is in my mind 24/7. I asked her out loud one day, after she came outside to see me at break time, "I talk to you in my mind. Do you hear me?" And she nodded and said, "I was telling you I was coming out soon." Which is exactly what she was doing telepathically a few minutes before that. And other cool stuff. Yesterday I was driving to pick up my stepdaughter and I was distracted and took the wrong exit, ended up going down the turnpike in the wrong direction. I took another exit to turn around, and I was thinking, "Yeah, it'll probably take me down this other route and I'll need to take another exit to turn around there." Immediately my spirit guide Deanna said in my mind, "No." And she was right - I was able to turn left over the overpass and get turned around quickly. She does this kind of comfort and reassurance stuff in my mind constantly. Which is only fair, considering some of the other stuff she's done on occasion... Your state of mind sounds a lot like my state of mind, in various degrees, for the past 35 years or so. And there are quite a few others hanging out on this forum who are "crazy" like us. So welcome aboard.
This is the perfect first response I was looking for. Reassurance only makes me feel happier, stronger. I can't express enough how much coming to one with my spiritual self has turned my life around. I'm looking forward to establishing a lot here, cheers to what's to come. PS: Nice synchronicity from this morning, ended my mothers day phone call and glanced at the time at 1:23 PM.
Thats awesome, KW! Seems like you're really goin' places, not mundanely of course . I too am one of 'the crazies'. I talk to trees, animals, grass, the rocks, all the time. Usually not in front of people, they think i'm insane enough as is xD. If it's not too intrusive to ask, how old are you, KW? Did you just start feeling this sort of energy/spirituality now? Try to think back to childhood, I know I can (even if it's not that long ago), and remember some crazy stuff I could do I never thought much of. One example is going into my mind, 'travelling' (in my head of course) around my house and seeing objects, say a pencil on a table. Then I'd get up, walk to the kitchen, say, and see the same pencil in the same position. It's neat. Once, I was on Acid with my best friend, and I could have sworn I heard his thoughts, though he couldn't hear mine. I answered questions at the same time he asked them, etc. It's some neat stuff! (Spirituality i mean)
Great stories buddy, I loved reading that. I'm 18, I'll be 19 next month. This has been going on ever since my "awakening", which I believe I achieved on mushrooms, so within the past year, or my "rebirth", which has happened more than once. I've been getting more and more into the "spirit world" or spiritual side of life, reading, have my own experiences, I am falling more and more into the spiderweb of life and I believe everything is perfect, everything happens for a reason and I look for and find significance in almost everything I experience, I'm truly in love with the concept of irony. I'll come back with more, I'd love to hear more questions or insight.
