Do You Regret Trying Opiates?

I was thinking about my opiate use lately, how it started, the consequences, etc. and eventually came to the question of whether or not I regret having ever tried opiates in the first place.

Now I'm curious how other users feel about this: Are you glad you tried opiates that first time, or do you regret it? What would you do differently in the course of your habit/use/addiction, and what have you learned?

I'd say I'm about 70% glad I tried opes and 30% regretful. While always thinking about/wanting/spending money on them is a pain and carries a lot of stigmas, I wouldn't trade the feelings of self confidence, optimism, and relaxation opiates provide for anything.

 

I don't regret doing em', I regret getting addicted.

 

well before i was prescribed my meds,
the only other opiate i had done were a couple of percs.
so im gonna have to say no,
i don't regret it as my drug use provides me pain relief and the occasional buzz.

 

i basically regret doing all drugs, really fucked up my life. i used to be really reckless with my use, but now im way more careful and into harm prevention. after my stint in rehab i realized how much damage i had done to my brain. this has only continued to build over the last couple years. as far as opiate go ive only started using them alot in the past year, i used them back in the day, but they were never my drug of choice until now. anyway ive kinda got a feel for em now, and i think as long as i dont really go crazy and binge on em for weeks at a time, that it actually improves my life. EX: confidence, relief of social anxiety and depression. also it seems to be pretty harmless for my body.

im glad im into opiates not rather than a few years ago. if i had done this shit back say 3 years ago when i was dumb and reckless i probably wouldve OD'ed.

so back to the OP. i regret doing drugs as a whole. but as for my opiate use in the last few months i think its really been a godsend. theyve gotten me through some really tough times with the only real drawback being a week or 2 of shitty WD.

 

the only drug i regret playing with is cocaine (i found it mad addicting and controlling my life)
but not opiates in any way at all, I find I can be totally responsible with the use of them :S

 

fuck no!!!

 

Eh, I probably regret using them irresponsibly. Not necessarily the 'trying' part.

I use them resposibly enough to not w/d so I guess thats a good thing.

 

yes every day of my life

 

The only reason I regret trying opiates is because I will never reach that high again....

Damn elusive dragon!

 

not at all, i've learned a lot. even though it mighta been a mistake.

 

Absolutely not! Using opiates has made the quality of my life much, much better.

 

Nope, but then again I've never been addicted to them either. Just a nice thing to have every once and a while.

 

In a way I do regret ever trying them, because my mindset in the first place wasnt very healthy. Putting drugs into the mix wasnt the best idea. I LOVE opiates, OC is my favourite, that & weed are the only ones i dont regret doing, i just regret getting addicted. but how can you say no to opiate bliss?

 

cant say it any better.. lol

 

how could i regret such a beautiful thing

 

I'm not an addict, but even if I was, I don't think I would regret ever trying opiates. I don't really regret anything, including the excessive drug use I've partaken in over the past 10 years.

I've definitely made some mistakes, regarding drugs. Mistakes can sometimes be the best things to happen to you, because we never learn anything if we don't make a few mitsakes. lol

 

same here.

i've been doing H once or twice a weekend for the past month or so, and that's pretty much as frequent as it'll get. occasionally i'll do oxy on a school night, but that happens every once in a blue moon.

i don't regret trying them at all, i actually thank fate every day that i have the connections that i do. with my limited use, i think it's really great for just relaxing on weekends.

 

being an addict sucks, on the other hand, it is something to do.

 

I tried h for the first time when I was 15. I fell in love with a boy who I met at his Welcome Home From Prison party when I was 14 and he was 19; I told him I was 15 at the time. He wouldn't let me try dope for a full year; on my birthday (he thought it was my 16th, not that it matters, and he was kind of upset when he found out the truth a couple months later) he shot me up for the first time, and I instantly loved it. No puking, nothing bad, just a little queasy rush and then feeling like I could breathe for the first time. All the shitty noise in my head stopped. I had a full-blown habit within two months, and since he dealt coke (and we rarely used more than a gram or two of his product so he made real money) there was always a supply.

I was a straight A student, a cheerleader, in drama club, in chorus and madrigals, played piano...and I was a total junkie in an upper middle class NY high school. I ended up dropping out in November of my senior year, throwing away scholarships from some of the most prestigious universities in the country (along with offers from the Sorbonne and Oxford), moved in with Mark, and spent all my time wrapped in a cocoon of opiated denial.

Christmas Eve of the year I was 18, I woke up and did a bag. I was going to do another one from the couple of new bundles that he'd bought the night before, it was new shit though and I wanted to wait til he got up so we could try it together. I left the bag on my nightstand and went in to shower. When I came out 20 minutes later, I found Mark on the bed, blue, no pulse, syringe next to him. He'd done the shot. It was a hot bag apparently. He was dead.

After that, for years, I struggled with survivor's guilt, and the feeling that nothing could kill me but I was sure as fuck going to prove that or kill myself in the process. Five years of hell, struggling to find ways to pay for what I'd had for free every day for 3 years. I finally od'ed, got a DUI, ended up in outpatient, and was sent to a 6 week rehab. I stayed clean for many years after that, but to this day I think about Mark and what would have happened had I chosen a different path and NOT gone down the opiate trail.

So to answer the OP - the opiates I'm on now, like Bluez said, provide pain relief and the occasional buzz, so I can't say I regret taking them. They help me, and I don't believe anyone should suffer pain when relief is available. I think many physicians are brainwashed about opiates as pain management. They have a legitimate place in the medical world, and I'm grateful for them because they allow me to function. But am I sorry I tried dope in the first place? Yes. Every single time I visit Mark's grave, every time I clear the dead flowers from the grave and place the fresh white roses or calla lilies, every time I think of what could have been, I regret it. I detest dope - I love it, I respect it, but I fear it and I hate it at the same time.

Well gee, that was kind of wordy. Sorry. Off to work I go.

 

No I dont, I have learned to be responsible with them, I no longer get really addicted to them, because again, I use them responsibly, I take breaks, and I never abuse them enough to withdraw. Right now i have a really low tolerance so i am enjoying my self, but I know not to go to far with it.