Uh, i have no friends... Well, theres 3 people i get along with, but its impossible for me to hang out with them, due to one being on the other side of the world, one being a grown man, and the other becoming a grown family man. I dont get along with people my age, i mean i am charismatic, i can communicate really well, im not grotesque or fucked up in any way (maybe inside issues), but i just end up seeing these people as really stupid and loosing interest. I guess i could potentially be over developed for my age, or maybe everyone is just incredibly stupid. I have certain morals and in time everyone shows to be a leying/deceitfull person, and just bails on you when you need them most. I used to try and fit in to the popular crowd, when i thought maybe it was my fault... and i did... fit in -but it was just really fucked up period, i felt like a common piece of fake shit, i had a break down, major depression for a few months, and now I just am me... Most people who i meet really like me, but in time i grow to find them really boring and predictable, acting how its cool to act and being how its cool to be, and avoiding/not questioning anything which is not cool. I guess i sound arrogant, but i really mean the young people here are fucking pathetic... So ive kinda grown into being a loner, i do everything by my self, and allthough somethings i enjoy doing alone, others are painfull... I also tend to fall in love with every girl that pays any attention to me, sometimes i meet these incredible women, who are more amazing then anyone ive yet known, and then to find out theyre not into younger guys or theyre seeing someone... and fuck, that someone turns out to be a complete asshole... So theres days on end where i just hate people, but hate being alone, wishing to have someone like me who understands me, someone i can share myself with, someone i can understand and want to share... but i fear how most people spend lifetimes not finding that circle, and ive spent most of my current life in a really fucked and traumatising one... (long story) Fuck.... People who i look upto say they went through similar and that this will change, but its kinda eating at me, so i fear i may be rotten by the time it does, or if im not allready...
i'd be your friend for the simple fact that your sig pic is utterly EPIC! and made my day. i'm socially retarded as well i'm just kinda OUT THERE and down right strange..... but i get by! who needs friends just get stoned and dream up yer own man! peace and love!
heh thanks =) and i know, everyone thinks im weird, i just do things i mostly feel like, sometimes theyre not socially accepted or some bullshit. for example,most of my humor isnt understood by anyone outside of the intertubes... yet everyone uses the intertubes, i guess me not having facebook/myspace and spending my days on it also makes me behind on the whats now socially accepted.... dreaming is awesome, so is getting stoned, but i realise i cant spend all my life like this...
oh i know i've quit smokin weed which saddens me when i think of all my super cool drug induced adventures. but smoking weed really helped me. so did shrooms. i used to be that one girl you saw at school and just knew you were going to hear one day that she hung herself in her closet or something. that really emo "has so much potential" girl ya kinda a freak (well still a freak just more comfortable with it) but as soon as i started doing drugs. it opened my eyes to a new world. the world and life is beautiful. you just have to look at it with a beautiful mind. and mine is DEFINITELY beautiful lol
yeah i feel almost the same situation as the op. What happened to me though is that i have just trained myself to not give a fuck about anything except positive things, It takes a strong mind to overcome all the bullshit but if you can do it it makes you feel better about everything. Like if people are talking i won't give a fuck about any of it just when i hear something that is interesting i might start talking too and i can't always hold the most articulate conversations but if people don't like it then i just think i don't give a fuck and i will hold my opinion i have of the individual. There are some cool respectful people that i have met, but for the most part everybody eventually turns into this unreliable piece of shit that only plays life in order to get what they want and/or get the people that they want. I know my personality isn't the best like i used to be funny as hell but after all that bs i just think about everything too hard now and thats what led me to not give a fuck.To me its not worth all the pressures and annoyances to form meaningful things to say on a regular basis. I am probably more dull of a person now but i just feel more in control of everything than i ever did. By becoming more of an individual i have expanded my mind to the infinate horizon without haveing some fuckin human anchor holding my thoughts back. I don't really have many friends but that is not a problem because most the people i know i don't want as a friend. It would be nice for there to be some likeminded people as me but like i said i have magical i don't give a fuck powers.
That's very well put, i agree. I use to argue with everyone who was wrong before, and almost always i was right and won, but it changed nothing... now i try to just observe and lol i guess, but doesnt always work
I'm not much of a social being as well. I don't have friends at the moment....ya know maybe someone to get baked with once in a while. I too have grown not to give a damn if people like me or not. Anyways, you sound pretty awesome to me bro.
Being selective at whom to befriend and valuing quality over quantity does not equate to social retardation... if anything you're socially advanced- embrace it.
