just trying to find shit out

Well ive been thinking alot about how the influence of your sorrounding and your parents and all your friends and envioronment has on you, and i started to think about all the people who smoke and don't smoke right, well i was thinking there must be some sort of reason some do and some don't based on some sort of upbringing or influence, so then i started thinking why the fuck did i get into it i mean like my parents are fairly strict but not over protective, they don't force me to do shit they know isn't right , the main principle they taught me as i was growing up was "be your own man" as in don't do things to be like others, they tought me good morals and catholicism in a loving sense instead of forced apon me, so im thinking why a kid like this would get in marijuana you know, because im hitting a level plain of marijuana depression man, the kind were you just start analyzing every part of human existance and you start figuring out true but depresing shit about everyoen you know and your life, well so im wondering what got me into it you know cuz i can't like blame my past or my parents, and like ive been smoking regulary for like a year so its a tad beyond me, now im not saying if you smoke you got bad parents but just like knowing the stoners i know its like they ahve something that looks like it would lead to drugs but im trying to figure out what it is for me you know, i mean my folks are pretty liberal but there anti drug as hell so its not like im allowed to smoke, idk i feel pretty fucked up for doing this to them by doing drugs

fuck you probaly all thought i was just fucking dumb but i needed to talk aobut this
if anyone has any ideas or wa ys of understanding leave a post

 

Maybe you should go toke and read over what you just said, you will find out more about it, or realize its all bs anyway and just enjoy the time you have.

Regarding your dilemma, I was brought up in a good family, dysfunctional but still good as in they aren't alcoholics or druggies, but I smoke. I have had several bad drug addictions, and all of it came down to me. MY friends did it a long time before I started, I didn't give in to peer pressure, I just wanted to see what drugs were about. I got too far deep into it then, but I came out smarter and learned how to enjoy chemicals responsibly and appropriately. It had nothing to do with my friends or upbringing really.

 

Correct me if I'm wrong, but it sounds to me like you're into smoking and enjoy it, and the only reason you're doubting yourself is because your parents are antidrug. It seems that their upbringing is starting to seepinto your being more and more. That's why you feel guilty about it.


My parents never told me not to do drugs, so I have no problem smoking pot. They don't aproove of it, but I don't feel guilty about it. One thing they did instill in me, though, is a sense of responsibilty. So I do it all in moderation. I do drugs responsibly (if such a thing can be said).

 

what the hell gets people onto icecream???? it tastes good!


man, the question you should be asking is why do you feel ashamed to smoke weed (caus its clear you do, to some extent at least)

Its an invalid question. its like, why do people get into drinkning. well anyone who doesnt have anything against drinkning, will drink.
Anyone who has nothing against smoking, will smoke
(for both tehse cases, it can be every now and then, or every day, its the same principle)

the thing is, because of the law and stuff, people dont knwo about marijuana, and so they have somehting against it.

as said, your catholic parents, or some other source youve seen has made you guilty to do drugs so now your questioning yourself as to why you started. maybe someone said somehting about you being a stoner, or asked you why you got into it?

you keep referring to it as if its a bad thing, that people 'get into'. well of course lots of people 'get into' it once theyve tried it, caus tis good! duh! but its like anything. like lots of people like eating ice cream!

 

Well, alcohol caused some problems in my family until my dad quit, so I had this sort of distaste for it. I drink now and then but never got real into it, because I don't like the feeling of drunkenness or the hangovers and puking. But there's still that need to experiment. My parents weren't heavilly antidrug and my dad, i knew, used to smoke when he was younger, so that might have had an influence. Plus, the music I listen to kind of glorifies it (the culture does anyways, classic rock and jam bands...) so I had a desire to try it thanks to that. Since I liked it, I kept on going. I think that's the main thing, and stonerbill has a good point in his post.

 

hey dude i have done this before, we all have at one point or another, i do it when im shroomin particulry you get a differnt perspective on things and you start analyzing every little thing nad it just strait fucks with your head, just rmeber one thing, its the drug, jus say that to yourself when you start getin deprreessed, unfortunatley if you wana get a clear, sober-minded perspective, the only way that is guna happen is you wil have to stop smoking for a few days to clear your head. otherwise its just the drug mayn, jus fucking with your head, thats wat the drug is suposed to do, so just rember you have been smoking, you are smoking , there is no reason to stop, its all in your head man.

 

you control the drug, not the other way around

 

sounds like you are wrokign for the drug by analyzing all ur shit.

quit that

lay back watch a movie baked and let the drug work for you
my parents are antidrug as hell too but they are hipcritic as fuck cuz my mom buys me smokes. their whole anti-perspective is purely based on the fact of it being illegal
my mom even said that she will send me to amsterdam for my highschool graduation present ( my brother got a new car) and she said that if Alaska gets legalized (theya re voting on it today and hope fully it will happen and since tis a federal law outlawing MJ then there will be red tape for MONTHS) then we could go in febuary

 

been here done all the above within the last couple years, big time


just even at this time last year i was in the middle of some crazy shit, chicago, and got into alot of stuff, it was nutz, all way through springtime even, saw and did some things i thought id never, thought i could never,

nowadays im comepletely jaded about everything, feel liek have been on this planet for a really long time, dont see what could possibly happen now, nothing interesting i know,

hmmm


experimentation can be ok and non incidental if youre careful and dont do it too often, uhmm it can easily turn into a daily thing, and once it is then its all you think about and want to do, its insane

it is hard to break free and keep away, it is no fun

i could easily revert back into if i had any income


its fun as hell, sure!


until its over..

i highly dont recommend experimentation to anyone who has not much savings, or no relatives around, is out of work, has not currently good outlook on the future due to anything from layoffs to whatever,

its when you dont have any need to hide it that it escalates

good luck