Gay Dream.. Confused..

So im 17 and i just woke up from one of the most confusing dreams of my life. I was on a schoolbus full of kids my age, but i got off at the wrong spot and ended up somewhere with people i didnt know. I start walking around for a bit through the crowd, and in a flash im in some othe teens room putting on a condom to fuck him. Here's the twist.. this guy clearly had a pussy, and I was fucking "it" like "it" was a woman; with "its" legs spread out and wrapped around me. Then the door opened and I didn't know how to react as a man that appeared to be his butler or father opened the door..

I'm pretty certain that i'm straight as deep down I desire love with the opposite sex, have been in several relationships, and during foreplay my dick is hard as ever. Also I masturbate to either straight or lesbiam porn. I love girls too much. All said and done, i'd be lying if my thoughts about perhaps having sexual attraction to other men did not follow me around. I've often heard that this is quite common during my age, but I cant help but question even this at times. Having doubts about myself really started when last year I was getting ready to have sex for the first time with my girlfriend and as I was putting the condom on, I started getting soft after being hard for about 45 minutes. An overwhelming feeling of humiliation washed over me and a little voice whispered in my head "she isn't the right one, you aren't ready yet". My second oppurtunity to have sex, which was about a month ago, ended the same way..

Am I truly not ready? Am I bi? Am I sane?

I love females, but perhaps I have just been sexually frustrated and this has damaged my perception.. Any input would be welcomed

Thanks

 

i don't quite know what to say o.o

did you enjoy this dream, first and foremost??
and what sort of other experiences (including porn, sexual activities, even thoughts) have you had with the same sex???

You might be Bi and realising it after living as a Straight guy for so long,
You might just be Straight and wondering...

ON THE OTHER HAND, HOWEVER

It might just be a dream
And what happened when you were going to have sex could have been to do with nerves, thoughts about whether you really wanted to do it (even if it was sub-conscious or at the back of your mind).
It's quite a common thing to happen to people who haven't had sex before.

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Pretty much impossible for anyone to self assess what their ranking really is.

17 and I assume in high school, you've probably got all the guys around you pretending you've got to be this big stud going around screwing all the girls you can, you are not quite a man if you dont. Thats a load of crap, there's always that thing in the back of your mind - as remote as it might be there is always the chance you might get this girl pregnant, is this girl the best I can get for that? Why wasnt the chase all that hard?

These two girls, just cos you might have thought they were hot enough, or you may have even thought that they were hotter than you, doesnt mean your body agrees if that makes sense. Your conscious mind gets battered by other guys ribbing you, and other girls trying to keep you in the dark.

It all doesnt mean shit, at 17 just about every guy is a bundle of hormones and confused with a million things going around their heads. Its all way more normal than you think.


As for the dream, well yeah it was a dream. You dreamt of fucking a guy with a pussy, doesnt sound very gay to me, even if it is doesnt mean anything, could be just about facing a fear, like dreaming of gettting chased by a bunch of wolves then them catching up to you and you laughing as they rip your limbs off. Dont try to read anything into a dream, they are usually whack, full of hidden meanings

 

Alright let's see what we can do here...
Sex is hard. It triggers so much subconscious activity that affects your physical body. I had the chance to have my first time, and though my conscious mind told me I was ready, I got sweaty and couldn't get erect, and eventually I just had to tell her it wasn't time. Because sex fucks with you, eh.
A lot of people worry that they're gay after being straight for so long, but you're just piecing together unconnected bits of sexual psychology. You're gonna be just, fine, hun, don't worry about it. Dreams are insane. Just take it easy for a while, don't be wild-sex-party teenager for a while and you'll be alright.