Addicted To Having Altered Mind

I have an issue that i'm not even sure is a problem: I have a constant desire to be in an altered state of mind. Ive spent the past two years either stoned, boomin, on opiates, drunk, etc. But a lot of the time that I am completely sober my one desire is to be with some friends and some chicks, drugged out. When not on any drugs, I generally feel really burnt out and I am wondering if perhaps I have some kind of underlying issue about escaping from reality. much love. peace.

 

I have the same "problem". My mom pointed out to me one time that she didn't think I was addicted to any particular drug, but that I am just addicted to being altered, in general, because I just don't feel right if I'm not experiencing some sort of intoxication.

I came to refer to this as a "non-specific drug addiction". haha It seems fitting.

 

yeah it doesnt really feel like a "problem", but I dont want it to become one. How do you deal with it? I dont really want to stop altering my mind, just to understand my urges and get some clarity.

 

I just concentrate on marijuana as my drug of choice. I'll usually do whatever drug is lying around but if there are no other drugs, marijuana leaves me completely satisfied and I require nothing else:sifone:

I used to eat xanax like it was candy though. lol I had to stop that shit.

 

I have the same problem. I love the feeling of a "higher conscience", I suppose, and if I could, I would be in that higher state constantly.

I don't drink much anymore. I decided to cut back on it. The only drug I really use is marijuana, and I deal with it by only allowing myself to get high maybe twice a week [if even] and I only do it for "spiritual enlightenment", or whatnot. It's all about will power.

I find that wanting it and keeping myself from it makes the actual moment of a high so much more fulfilling.

 

I possess very little.

 

I have the exact same problem. Its not any particular drug or ever class of drugs that has me hooked; its playing with my mind.

I guess its like when people are obsessed with their body?

 

Eggzakly! If you're anything like me, you can't stand the thought of being anywhere near what is considered to be "normal". Also, much of my drug use is to help me to arrange my chaotic thoughts in positive, constructive, and productive ways, which is very difficult when I'm not "chemically enhanced". lol

 

i think i'll just keep on using, but not abusing.

 

lol, some of you guys sound societally disfunctional sometimes... but... who knows... like i don't really know ya's......


if you think you're addicted and it's becoming a problem you should lay off, sounds more simple than it is i know...but if you do some good things may happen, whooo knooowwwwsssss

 

its called drug addiction. you dont have to be addicted to one specific drug, your just addicted to being fucked up.

 

I have the same thing. I'll do anything I can get my hands on, even drugs I dislike. The only drugs I will never do are ecstasy, and mushrooms. I've done em before and I don't like the feelings of anxiety I get.

Everything else is fair game.

I wouldn't say it's so much a problem for me, I would say being in a normal state of mind is more of a problem. It's so boring, and even doing active stuff (hiking, biking, etc) is more fun fucked up.

 

What's up Twizz? It's been a while since we've talked man.

I agree....being in a normal state of mind is much more problematic. More anxiety and much more negative thoughts. Being under the influence of some sort of drug makes everything in life more enjoyable, or at least more interesting.

 

Non-specific drug addiction FTW!

 

hahaha You like that, do ya?

 

yeah man ive been like that since i was 16, but like one dude said i pretty much just smoke buds now..and trip..but i used to do it all, whatever i could get, and as much as i could get in me

 

I'm actually getting over it . . . slowly i'm letting go, i already realize i dont need it anymore, now its just saying goodbye to a chapter of my life and moving on to the next. this summer is my goodbye to frequent drug use. hopefully

 

I feel like a non specific drug addiction is akin to the desire to take control of your reality. The consistent pressure of sober thoughts can get to some people.. and being in an altered state often frees us from 'automated' shifts in attention that focus our minds on problems and threats. The one similarity to all 'high's is that some sort of weight is lifted..

 

As long as your habits aren't controlling your life, you're gravy.

Personally, though, I like to be straight for periods of my life. I tend to get more stuff done and grow more. I love tripping, but no more often than every couple of weeks, and generally I go months between trip. I've done a load of drugs by now, and don't really have a need or want for most of them anymore.

I think I'll always be open and eager to do psychedelics, though.

 

lol I dont have a non-specific drug addiction, i have a silly "marijuana addiction" as if such thing existed LOL. I just love weed.