Many times when I talk friends, internet users, and family members always ask "have you talked to a therapist?" Honestly maybe I haven't given the psychiatric community the chance they deserve but every time I go: One. I feel sick, I feel unhealthy I feel like patient and a fool who can't even manage his own mind Two. I feel terrible nervous I someone will ask me why I am there (mental health care is free at my university) so I try not to make eye contact worried I will have to lie about some knee pain or something Three. In the actually session I am always twitching because I feel terrible nervous. As though I am on trial knowing that legally I have to be careful with some my confessions and the fact I am telling a stranger all the thoughts I never tell anyone because I don't want them to hate me. After (only been three times) I always feel nauseous, weak, and dizzy. I for some odd reason run into my ex, the first time she made me go, and the other times I end up sleeping in public places because I feel to fatigued to walk home. I know in time maybe they can help me, I really am so tired of them and personally none of them have said anything useful. Also the idea of being "cured" sounds so odd and something I can't work out in some office.
i wish i could hold your hand and help you fine someone you'd feel comfortable talking to. not all therapist are good or are going to be what you need. trial and error... maybe if you go back.. ask to speak to a new person. i had a few bad experiences with crappy therapists. i decided i was going to just read some self-help books..... that worked a little and made me understand that a therapist works FOR ME... and if that are not ... i can "fire" them. also your decision to see a therapist is no ones business but yours.. what you talk about with them is also no one but your own business! they are not allowed to talk about you to ANYONE... unless you tell them you plan to hurt yourself, someone else or you know of someone else being hurt. don't worry about being "cured". there is no such thing. you'll get better.. understand more about yourself.. there is no magic words that anyone will say to you that'll make it all better. be patient with yourself.. and be kind to yourself!
so so been there, what turned me around? developed a nice case of paranoid drug induced psychosis. Once that wore off I felt i had a lot to say. Hey theres not a cure to life, because its never broken...theres facing your fears, fears drive you away from living the life you seek. Like Boogabaah said its about understanding yourself, what makes you tick...if you know that then you can beat those problems to the punch...and even point them to the exit
Forget the therapists, you answered the question yourself. You are your own therapist, it just takes time to figure out yourself. Get a pad and paper, sit down, and dont stop writing till your questions get answered. The human brain is absolutely amazing, all it takes is time to find the answer.