Hey hipforum members, I have been browsing around these forums for awhile now, and I feel like it's about time I've made my first post. So a few months ago I had taken two hits of the strongest LSD my body has yet consumed. It was was more strong in the sense of my mind feeling like it was being fucked with, more so then the visuals I was getting. The days after I had taken the LSD, I had become depressed. My verbal skills had been slaughtered, I had begun to stutter on words which I had never experienced before, and I had felt extremely out of it for the next month to come. However, the most evident side effect I had gotten from dropping was how much more self-aware I had become. I started to notice so many things about my self that I hated, and I realized I could never be as comfortably ignorant as I once was. I began to notice my disinterested tone I gave towards people I talked too, which is something that bothers me more then you can ever know. I became completely self-aware of how I associated myself with others that at one point I no longer desired to continue my life. I felt as if I had no hope in changing, and that I was forever trapped inside a personality I could never leave. So I guess the point of this thread is to ask you guys, Have you felt that LSD has changed who you are as a person, or has it made you just more self-aware of yourself? I'd also like to say that I don't ever regret taking Acid. It has given me a totally new perspective I've felt I've needed for quite some time. I sincerely thank Acid for helping me realize who I am and how it has made me want to change to become a much better person.
When you become more self-aware, you are bound to notice some tendancies within you that you aren't comfortable with, or do not find desirable. Some that will even make you downright hate yourself. The magic is that now that you are aware of them, they are at your mercy.
Thats what these substances are for. "Only tools to show us who we really are". Change yourself for the better, become a better person. You must identify your problems before you can fix them. Your on the right track, dont look at it as a negative thing.
you are not trapped in your personality. it is just a psychic limb of yours. you can exercise it. you can change it. it is malleable. before in ignorance it was a constant, now in self-awareness it is variable. don't despair, rather use this new knowledge to better yourself. all you need to do this is to want to do this.
Im in the same boat as you. Luckily i now know exactly what i have to do, and it sounds like you do to. Just do what you feel man. My sense of awarness has been scary since that hero dose.. all for the better tho mate.
If only everybody turned on and become so self aware. People wouldn't be such arrogant bastards, the world would be a much better place.
Ever since taking acid my life has been more. More of everything. The whole spectrum of life, lived more intensely and abundantly. If I feel lousy it's usually from simple reasons, but the lousiness is inflamed. On the flipside feeling exultant starts with simplicity, and the results are bounteous. Sometimes the love within is so much it's intimidating, like I wouldn't know what to do with it to fully give in.
i'm glad. changing yourself gets easier the more you change yourself. it's a snowball effect . . . changing x makes changing y easier which makes changing z easier which . . . well eventually you run out of letters and have to come to that other realization; some things you can't change, and that's ok, because if you could change everything about yourself at will, what the hell are you
Yeah! My acid trips usually always end up being psychoanalytical, and self-reflective. That's why I think the commonly seen fractal-like mandala patterns are interesting. Because fractals work on the same kind feedback. But yeah, acid can reflect and magnify many things. I try to use it as a motivator to change aspects about myself that I'm uncomfortable with but have to face while tripping.
