I never listen to whats inside of me that's my problem. Two years ago I got involved with somebody I didn't love to get out of a bad home situation. Everything was fine for awhile. Then he stopped taking his medication and things went to hell. He started getting involved with this boy online and became obsessed. He gave up all his hobbies and just spent almost every waking moment staring at the computer screen. The boy he got involved with start out doesn't give a shit about him and would rather play computer games. In fact I think to him this is just one big game to him. He doesn't understand how bad my ex boyfriend got because he never sees the aftermath. When I first met my ex boyfriend he was excited and compassionate and wanted to do things. Now he never leaves the house, he never plays video games. All day long he sits at the computer and cries about why the online boy doesn't love him. Now he started drinking. First it was three beers a day now its three cases. He will pass out on the couch and ramble about how much he hates his life. He is on some pretty powerful medication now and its fucking up his system. He will start yelling at me and calling me names. He thinks just because I live with him and he pays the rent he can treat me however he wants. I been trying to find a way out but nothing seems to go through so I have to take it. He has never got physically violent with me but he is becoming borderline mentally abusive to me telling me he would toss me on the street if i talk to the online boy. He has talked about killing himself or putting himself in the hospital just to get the online boy to love him. As much as I try to tell him he has a addiction and its unhealthy he wont listen. I want to get away. I was the one who was always there for him but he pushes me aside in a second when it comes to the online boy i just can't take it. I been trying to find a job but have had no luck. I just want to get away.
that's some fucked up shit. you tried getting some strong guys to bodily move him to a hospital and explain this madness?
He's schizophrenic and his thoughts arnt very logical and no matter what I say he wont listen. I attempted to talk to his mom about it but she just doesn't give a shit. She says I am making a big deal out of everything and should ignore it. Its his life and I shouldn't try to control it or mother him. I just think about how he used to be when I first met him and want to cry.
Thinking of him when you first met him is what's keeping you from leaving right now. Ok so maybe you can't leave this second because you don't have enough money or whatever but once you've made a decision to leave, STICK TO IT and do everything in your power to save money and get the hell out of there. Drinking can easily lead to violence and he obviously thinks he can do whatever he want to you... I don't imagine things getting better unfortunately.
Things arent going to get better. Listen carefully to this, from someone who's been there: YOU CAN NOT CHANGE A MAN!! You cant!! If he doesn't want to change, he won't. period, end of story. what he's doing is emotional abuse and it's not ok. and if his family won't help you, will yours? is there any relative or friend you can stay with for a little while?? what about DSS, or a women's shelter or something? Granted, they aren't the best places in the world, but you'll be safe and away from his abuse. You really need to get away from him before he does something to hurt you. People who threaten to do it, well, who's to say what they will or won't do as far as carrying out their threats?? Please listen, because I've been through something similiar. You are not going to change him, and who he was THEN isn't who he is NOW, keep that in mind when deciding what you'll do.
hmmm sounds very complicated, can u not speak to his doctor or even ur local doctor they maybe able to help? it sounds like he needs medical help, if he isnt takin his meds right or the meds are messing him up then he needs that checked
Its hard saving up money because nobody is hiring for a job. It just seems saveing money to move out is hopless.
Run Like Hell.. with the drinking and the mental abuse... physical abuse can't be too far in the future.
Kick it down to a backpack and say "see ya". I left a failing relationship of 8 years to.. well.. living on the street. I still have my bus, ahh, the comforts of a small home.. no more house though.. no more kitchen. I preferred sleeping on the beach over the crap I came home everyday to in my situation. Even now after eight months have gone by of this.. it doesn't bore me... I like my way of living. Mental abuse is just as bad as physical, except it can leave deeper scars.. and specially couped with drinking. Drinking relaxes you to make everything seem right, even when it comes to showing violence towards another being. If he's at the rate of calling you names, he's could just be a few steps away from adding those names to a fist.. Wow.. you're in Our-land-o.. nab a backpack and hitch it to Melbourne. Our canopy on the beach has plenty of bedrooms.. join us kids, runnin' round, slingin' jewelry.. being merry. The point of life.. to be happy. Trails
