how far should I go, or should I go back

p.s. before i even start, i've looked around for 10 minutes and this it the only catagory that seems to have fit....
and please be patient, i seem to be a wordy scatterbrained writer

anyway...

i've had a very steady, very loving relationship with my bf for about 2 1/2 years...... i'm 99.99% sure i'm going to marry him. i even think he went and looked at engagement rings resently. and i've known my best friend ever since my mom started tutoring him with me at home since i was 16 ( i was homeschooled) (and i'm about to turn 20 yay!) i work with my bestie at his house in his families bakery... he's got a girlfriend (who's said repetedly that she doesn't believe in long term relationships and is going to dump him somethime when she gets bored of him i guess? ANYWAY) during lunch breaks, coffee breaks, end of work before i go home, we hang out in his room watching movies, lokoing at funny stuff he's found on the web ect...there is a lot of trust with his rents and me, so they don't think anything of it. but when i started working there in Jan. there was a lot of sexual tention that had built up because i started talking to him on a regular basis because of asking when i need to show up for work plus i just really enjoy talking to him and he asking for advice of stuff to do for his gf (he hasn't had all that much experience and i have ) and in Jan. i kissed him.....
for about a day it was akward, i didn't feel guilty, he did a bit. and after that we put down terms thinking it was going to become a regular thing, and then nothing happened for about a week, and i decided to put it out of my head and try to think of him as my little brother (he's 2 years younger than me)
this past week he's been back from college for spring break and i've been at his house pretty much everyday becuase his rents wanted to paint some rooms in their house and wanted me to help..... and we've started kissing again....
last 2 days i've asked him if he's felt any guilt and he's said no....
i'm determined that it's NOT N.O.T. NOT going to go any farther than kissing, and don't see it as cheating on my bf/future life partner....
am i just being human and hippie, or am i goin in a self destructing pattern and i need to stop
(p.s.s. no, there hasn't been any change in my relationship with my love, in fact i've gotten more easily turned on and feel sexier a lot more, and we've been going at it more often )
your input would be apreciated and forgive spelling, it's late where i'm at now

 

If your boyfriend saw the two of you kissing how would he feel? If you saw your boyfriend kissing another girl how would you feel? And don't lie. I'm telling you to stop now. Unless your boyfriend gave you permission to kiss your friend I would say that this is a bad Idea and needs to end.

 

You may not see it as cheating, but if you aren't telling your boyfriend it is. I bet he'd be pissed.

 

yeah i mean the whole free love thing only works in a relationship if your partner is down with it too, i mean i dont know how your sexual relationship is, but like would you be cool if he invited another girl, are yall open like that...if not then i dont think hed digg you kissing another guy