Things, you don't wanna do, but you do anyway..

Hey, do you anytime say or do things, that you really don't want to, but you.. you do anyway..?

I ask, because when I sometimes talk to my friends or so, I always try to be myself, but.. I can't, sometimes..

for example: I'm shy about it, but I start smoking.. waa.. you know, I always said, I'll never smoke.. but I go to school to Prague, and when we wait for a bus, everybody's smoking.. and.. I start to do it too..

 

I try to be myself, but many times I cannot... Btw you should quit smoking while it's easy... Later on it will be much harder...

 

hmm.. I probably should quit it.. :H

 

Im always myself, maybe thats what the problem is

 

Probably should... I finally quit, but I'll probably always have a slight urge to smoke as long as I live... It's not too bad, just be easier to not worry about it at all you know...

Being yourself is good, I wish I could do it more often...

 

oh shroom, I don't believe, it's a problem!

 

but you know, being a passive smoker is much worse, cause you don't breathe that fu*kin' smoke by filter...

 

But if you are a smoker, you probably breathe it through the filter way more often than you would breathe it unfiltered as a passive smoker...

 

THINGS I HATE BUT DO ANYWAYS...
Bottle my emotions up and not let people know how I feel till I am on the verge of a break down.
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eat altoids all day out of habit even tho i hate them
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sometimes i let my husband walk all over me, and keep it all inside, then just blow up at the drop of a dime

 

oh, and that's my strategy! I will smoke ONLY, when the others will..

 

Oooh can't believe I forgot these two.. Hehe I do both of those... I am addicted to altoids and I don't even like them either...

 

At work whenever someone makes cookies or anything I eat one so I don't insult them. I actually hate eating things other people I don't know make because you don't know how clean they are or if they washed their hands. I also get trapped at work listening to peoples entire life story untill I can end the conversation graciously and than end up at work late finishing what i should have been doing instead of listening to someones divorce that happened years ago.

 

I hate getting stuck listening to crap I don't care about, but I'm too nice to be like 'Fuck off, I don't care'...

 

exactly I don't get it I am such a private person with people I don't know really well I couldn't imagine just blurting out my life story.

 

Yeah some people can just talk about anything with anyone... I don't get it...

 

I'm the same.. it's hard for me to talk about.. for example.. my periods or so.. you know what I mean.. :H

 

there`s a *slight* difference between menstruating and your life story

 

sure, I know... but that's one of those things I don't wanna talk about, and when somebody starts talkin' about it, I'd like to say "Fuck off"...

 

oh yeah no one except my mom or who I am with at the time knows when I am having it. And I never say I have cramps it's always that I have a headache if I am asking for ib profin.

 

I never had a period. But, I have had several question marks.