My DXM Trip Report: Note: This is the last time I will ever use DXM. Also, this isn't a shitty report as in my last one. (I didn't do anything stupid.) Dose taken: I don't really remember, maybe 6oz's? Other drugs taken: I think I had klonopins in my system from earlier that day. STORY: Okay, so friday I decided I was doing DXM no matter what, it felt more like an impulse move more than anything. Note: I now noticed I've done DXM every weekened for the past month or two or maybe even past three months. Well I did something around 600-700mgs of DXM, not all the high right? SCRATCH THAT, it was very high for me but I was 100% ready. I drank it, it had gaulfisen or whatever in it but I didn't care (it ussually doesn't make me puke.) Well my buddy was sober for the first couple hours, after about an hour of taking the DXM everything had the best and most happy view to it as well as the most hilarious view. I couldn't stop laughing, I may have laughed for nearly a complete hour about absolutely nothing. So far I'm feeling great, well my parents were asleep and for some reason I decided we should smoke some pot. I had a dime bag from when I got busted, pretty fucking dry. I took the whole thing and filled up my bong stem (we smoked straight from the bong stem) and it took us forever to cash this fucker. Note: My buddy said he's never got so high from pot before and he smokes ALOT, yet this pot was quite old like a month-ish in my possesion. I left my giggle-fit and went straight to mellow mood, I hadn't smoked for nearly 43 (I think) days because I have court but I never thought of that friday. 1 Hour passes and my buddy falls asleep so I'm sitting in my guest house ALONE with my mind, scarrrrryyyyy. All I could think about was my girlfriend, I looked at the TV and all I could see in the TV was not the current program on but her image was smack dab in the middle of the screen, soooo wierd. No complaining though. As the night went on I noticed I COULD NOT FALL ASLEEP, it was horrible. A couple hours into the trip I started talking to myself, literatly having a conversation with myself. I turned on the song "Last Dance With Mary Jane" by Tom Petty and I realized I have my final court date next week so I felt all depressed because I smoked and fell into the pressure so that's all me and myself talked about for like an hour. My inner personality kept scolding me, it was strange then all of the sudden I said "WHO IS THIS?" and I responded God, so I talked to "God" for about an hour. Just talking to a random voice, my buddy is passed out and I was literatly talking out loud through speech to these voices. It was an amazing experience, at the end a voice told me "Okay, this is your new start, it's time to start fresh and head for better things." I instantly took this as a sign to quit the drugs, just focus on my school and look to the future not the present. Because of this I truely believe this was a big learning experience, NOTE: I never went to sleep, I was up for nearly 48 hours and tripped for about 8 hours, I've decided to stop the use of DXM, pills and most likely marijuana. Friday night was so amazing, I was so in sync with everything around me, I felt at peace with the world and thought to myself for the first time "If I died right now, I'd be okay with that, all nuetral feelings." I now realize I need to grow up, stop acting like such a fool, at this age drugs are bad, I need better habits then move on more with marijuana (IF I FEEL THE SAME PASSION) at an older age such as 20+ when my brain is more developed and closely to a fully developed stage. I love DXM, but nowow I realize that DXM for me is just a learning experience not a LIFE experience. It's now my time to move on with myself. Well, that's it, there is so much more but anyone that has had a trip such as mine would realize that this amazing experience can barely be put into words. Comments? Thank you for your time. Peaceee.
really interesting. it's great that you found such meaning in your experience. i definitely respect anyone who can come to terms with something like that and decide to make a change.
Yup, I'll use all my might to stick with my word. My girlfriend told me she was quiting everything not to long before the trip, we talked about it but I was iffy. I think my subconcious kicked in. Hesh: I'm 16 y/o. Way to young to start things such as this IMO.
yeah sometimes i reconsider my use of certain drugs, mostly weed/hallucinogens... i can't help but feel like they're much better suited for someone who's better developed into life (not a high school senior like myself who has more important things to worry about). you know? like, i feel like they'd be worth so much more if i spent my time now doing everything i could besides drugs, and when i'm 30 with a good job and a wife, a home, just an established "me", that's when tripping is going to mean something. otherwise it's all for recreation, which is perfectly fine. but it's a pretty fine line between recreation and distraction.
I understand completly how you feel, I feel the same way. I'm a junior, I have nothing against marijuana and maybe I won't quit 100% on mary jane but I got so addicted to that whole mind state that it got in the way of my school work. When I'm actually successful I do think mary jane would be 100% better because you could look back on all your hard work and exhale. People say teens have no self-control, I hated it so much when anyone would say that but maybe because it's the facts, I lost my self control which is completly out of the line.
yeah if being alone with your mind is scary you should take a break from drugs for a while until you feel you would be ok if you were the last person on earth imo
I'm 16 as well, and started smoking bud three or so years ago, and got hooked on opiates two years ago... Got up to taking 100+ Oxycodone a day atleast, just to function... quit cold turkey at one point for several months... have been back on them for a while, mostly just hydrocodone now, as Oxy is very rare here... but I've noticed that every time I've used DXM, I've had a serious session of introspection, a cycle of extreme depression, and then an extremely insightful, epiphany like ending. But even when hooked on Oxycodone, I made perfect grades in school, even going through crazy W/D, where I couldn't sleep, I managed to keep it up. I guess what I'm trying to say is, if you don't think you're prepared, then definitely Stop. but I believe this is VERY particular to the mental maturity of the user, not at all related to the age, as many have proven they can be productive members of society and still keep the pleasurable habits they have. All things in Moderation, that's the key... Definitely the hardest part.
not really its common. i've had the same kind of trip. it definitely helped me put things in a better perspective and helped me gain some order in my life when you realize there are more important things than getting high 24/7 esp when your 16. i also think you'll be back..after you have time to really dwell on things.
