I don't know what makes me happy.

It gives you some time to breath fresh air, get exercise and just get away from 4 walls for a while. It really does help work out the depression; no meds required.

I'm going to start walking just as soon as it warms up. I can't stand the cold.

 

it's just indigestion from the baby he ate at lunch. Don't worry, he'll be back to normal once he takes a shit.

To tell you the truth, dave, I don't know what makes me happy much these days either. I just take it when I am, lol.

 

Good point. That and sitting posture/body awareness is essential for me. I was able to quit anxyolitic and anti-depressant medication that way.

 

really posture contributes to poor mental health. Please tell me more.
ps-In highschool I was a skinny girl with big boobs, so I had horrible posture from being self-concious.I still have horrible posture.

 

I think it was meditation that taught me posture. And by meditation I don't mean anything too cosmic. It's simple body awareness for me.

My uncle is a practicing Buddhist and he introduced me to meditation when I was 19. I did it for a while, and after a long halt - went back to it in different periods of my life.

Invariably I notice that when I am sad, there is a postural or attitude related symptom. In other words, a physical symptom.

Edit: Another thing that meditation does which is therapeutic for me is the fact that it puts me in a receptive state toward my most troubling feelings. Which is the opposite from sitting here on the computer, or getting drunk, or smoking cigarettes to try and escape the feelings that later on will come back to haunt me.

 

I can only speak from my experience.

What started my business.

I bought some Hawaiian baby wood rose seeds so I could make LSA which is a Hallucinogen.

So I wanted to trip or get high. I had fun with it and had some seeds left so I planted them.

I was already growing Marijuana in my apartment.

I found out I have this gift. I can grow stuff really well. Green thumb they call it.

At this point I am still at a job that I hate.

The wood rose pops up and grows like hell. I start looking into more Psychoactive plants.

Cactus and various plants that have DMT in them.

Again my fist motivation is to get high.

I started becoming obsessed with various plants and organic gardening.

What did I want to do all day? Get stoned.

When the wood rose seeds were harvested I had a series of LSA parties. People saw my plants.

A few people wanted seeds.

Well I was more interested in getting high than money. So I said no.

Well they kept offering more money for my seed stash.

Finally I took the money. The second and third planting had a huge yield.

Yes I am oversimplifying everything.

But my current businesses are a result of me wanting to be high.

 

I'm never, ever rude when I post here.

Well, maybe once in a while, but only to faggots that deserve it.

 

Dave: What about the physics stuff?

 

It happens to the best of us.

Dave, there's gotta be something in your life that you enjoy/like which makes you happy. Nephew?

 

I don't know, I mean, it engages me, makes use of my mind much better than most things. but, I don't know if I feel happy from it.

 

love. not to go all cheezy. but like when your nephew looks up to his uncle, or ppl you love surround you, thats got to put a little bit of happiness in you..... ? i know everytime my son comes up to me and gives me a hug or a kiss, it makes me so happy

 

Sounds like someone needs some psychedelics.

 

thats non-stop smiling right there! hurts the next day! smiling hangover

 

i can sympathize with this problem too. I used to not know what made me happy, but it was because i wasnt trying to make myself happy. YOU have to make urself happy, ur responsible for that, its makes peoples lives around u easier and ur own life, when u love urself and are truely contented with who u are, its all up to you who u want 2 be and what makes u happy.

 

That would be me...wait no I have plenty.

 

What kinds?

 

I have never been happier since I started using psychedelics a lot and moderating my use of all other substances. I still need to cut back on drinking a bit :cheers2:

 

Did you see my second post in this thread?

I have things that are not in any books.

But pretty much Anything that can be grown in the tropics.

That does not mean they are all on my farm,

But I know the jungle well.

 

I've only been able to re-create an illusion of happiness lately.

 

Not in any book? I dont follow, are you implying that you've discovered new chems or new natural sources which have yet to be documented?
I read in your post LSA, Mescaline and DMT and Im assuming Peyote, San Pedro, etc Morning Glory, HBW, etc and the countless natural sources for DMT?
Are you growing any mushrooms