should i talk about this with my therapist?

i have not really talked about this or told anyone about it for years. it was an open and shut case as far as i was concerned.. but maybe it effected me more than i thought...

when i was in the 3rd and 4th grade a boy in my class, patrick, would chase me around and corner me. then he'd try to put his hand between my legs or touch my developing breast. (i was an early bloomer ) this went on for almost the whole two school years, but one day some other kids caught him doing it and seen how upset it made me. the held him in a little chair that was out on the playground, while i karate chopped him in the neck. when it was time to line up, patrick was still crying. the teacher asked him what happened he wouldn't say. some other kids told him.. i was so embrassased. i acted like nothing happened. the teacher never did anything after that.. patrick never got into trouble. i remember being so happy to hear he was moving out of state that summer.

my new therapist asked me several times if i had ever been molested or abused sexually.. i told her no.. should i bring this up with her? it was hard enough typing it all out just now.

 

I would say yes, only because you said you had trouble typing it. If you had typed that without having any second thoughts, then no; that would show it mattered very little to you.

 

I think you should talk about it because it seems that it did bother/upset you. Sometimes things that happen during childhood can effect you in your adult years, sometimes for the better and sometimes for the worse. It always helps to talk about it so you can work thru it and begin to let it go.

 

hmm.. okay.

just not sure how i feel about it, i guess.. kind of embarrassed.. kinda wish it wasn't real.. kinda feel like it's not important enough to mention.. but at the same time i feel like it's a secret..

yeah i don't know.. i guess i'll bring it up though.. and see what my therapist says about it.

 

i couldn't do it...

 

there's always next time. what would telling your therapist do for you do you think? do you feel better having told us? Maybe it's just getting comfortable with the notion that you don't have to hide it.

 

i really don't know what telling her this will do. maybe nothing. i don't feel "better" typing it all out here either... almost feel "selfish" .. there are so many people that have far worse things happen to them than this.

 

I think you should talk it out with your therapist. It's been decades. And if you feel you're not over it yet, you really should tell your therapist. You wouldn't know the result if you won't try. Maybe this could help you heal from any psychological or health problems.




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