ok so im really freaked out

so i just tripped 4 doses last night and it was a hell of a trip

i tripped probably over 20 times and each trip gets more intense

i started remembering really familiar thoughts/feelings im not really sure how to describe it

then i started tuning into my head, and i started hearing someone talk to me through my head and through my friends and other people and animals

i started to tune in on this voice only to find that it was my mind talking to me telling me that im a computer

the voice kept telling me to kill myself

i feel like im stuck in a computer and acid helped me realize that

and that the people talking to me through my head (they are crystal clear) seem like they are trying to help me escape this computer by commiting suicide

i even had a girl started IMing me telling me to do what i was thinking about

i asked why would i ever want to kill myself

and she said because it is interesting

i know a lot of you are going to say im tripping and my head was just fucking with itself

but these voices (computer hackers, aliens, god?) kept telling me to kill myself

somebody please help me understand why i am hearing people talk to me from what sounds like outside of this world

 

You hear this while NOT tripping?

 

not before

but i still do right now

and im not tripping

 

Allright well first off wait a week. If it's still happening 5 days from now, consider this.

There are mental illnesses in which you hear voices.

These mental illnesses usually emerge between ages 15-30.

LSD can trigger these mental illnesses if they are latent within you.

So see a doctor if it's still happening, you might just be in the afterglow of a strange, bad trip. Or you might have triggered schizophrenia. Wait it out to rule out LSD effects.

 

Ask the voices "why am I a computer"

Key to dealing with inner voices, talk to them. Nothing wants you to die, sometimes astral entities don't know how to communicate in our language well. They'll say things in weird ways that aren't meant to be literal. The astral is always metaphorical.

 

so much speculation
voices in the head can mean many many different things
have you ever dealt with voices personally? theres many more faucets to the phenomena than western psychology and 'schizophrenic' diagnosis can even comprehend

 

man im not fucking schizo i just keep experiencing these things when i trip and its so obvious

i usually come down from the trips within a day or two and i start to doubt my thoughts

but this one was the realest thing i have experienced and im begging to wonder who i really am

this was my largest dose yet

 

That's right, I said "consider this". I knew my reply would generate hate and disagreement, and I also knew there would be a large number of replies coming from a spiritual side.

I just wanted to include the possibility that this is a mental disorder. There's nothing wrong with that, I wish people wouldn't get so uptight about it.

No, I've never dealt with voices in my head, but I have dealt with people who have severe thought disorders like Schizo, and the biggest challenge to them getting better is denial of a problem and a grandiozation of symptoms; ie, "the voices are from GOD" or "the voices are my soul trying to help me grow" etc.

Sometimes . . . voices in the head, are just voices in the head.

Consider that. And turn your gaze over to any internal hesitation or knee-jerk denial of such a hypothesis, because that may reveal a deeper core of delusion.

Keep an open mind above all else

 

well, l.s.d, all I will say is that, whenever I contacted voices, the only comfort I found was by sitting myself in long meditation, my ideal place is a pitch black room, completely silent. And then have a long chat with them. You have to stay very calm, remember you can fill your head and body with the aum tone to drown out and clear away incoming sounds. Start the tone from the heart, feel it vibrate through your whole body and brain.

Formulate questions very clearly. Make sure you integrate it into what you want. Just because an entity is external to you does not mean it is omnipotent. You are the one that is central to the experience of your body, you integrate it into your body as you see fit.

I'll tell you at the end of my bout with voices I said "Do not talk to me, come to me in tones, sounds and geometry". Since then I have not heard any voices, even when on substance, but I do have to be playing the piano or drawing at a pretty regular frequency to keep myself in balance now. An energy wanted to express itself through me, I had to guide it to the right outcome.

I also know the intuition of needing to kill oneself very well. Although I never had a voice say such things, perhaps if I was more prone to voices the intuition would of spoke it to me. But nonetheless, I did get the intuition incredibly strong at times. I came to understand that this is me simply needing to kill off components of my psyche, of my ego, to make room for new ones to come. It was not my body needing to die. It was components of the psyche needing to die.

I made a pact with the universe that this body would not die till it was 76 so until then, I know it's going to be the subject of many different personas and entities that come to collage themselves in it.

 

that made a lot of sense

 

rygoody is a wise individual. Dont let good advice go unnoticed.

 

i went through the same thing a few years back. my tripping history built up and the accumulative effect brought me to hearing voices of a sinister nature, both when tripping and somtimes when not tripping.

its increadibly important to center yourself right now. whether you choose to believe these voices are internal or external to your own conciousness is ultimatly irrelevant. in truth its best not to form a solid opinion one way or the other as far as im concerned. the remedy i found that worked for me was to simply observe with a detatched attitude. get to a place within yourself where this kind of nonsence dosent evoke an emotional response from you. but honor whatever emotions your are feeling, absolutly.
know that fear is only going to feed sickness and illusion. fear is the catalyst for insanity. look to your loved ones and open your heart to the world. let that which you hold most sacred center your life.

tread lightly, your doing just fine.

 

i just want to know what these voices are

and why they want me to take my life

 

Well, don't take your life even if they're telling you to.

I think you're the only individual who can answer your question about who they are. I mean, it is your head.

Just keep an open, clear mind. And try to "read between the lines" with what they are saying. Maybe they mean suicide in a different way...like your old lifestyle or something.

I mean, changing the way you live is quite interesting.

And take everything in a positive manner. Learn from it all.

And if it is something negative, tell it to GTFO. show it who is boss, it is your head.

Peace.

 

You have to be very careful how you deal with this. Obviously the voices are messing with you and although you should take this seriously there is no reason to believe that what they say is the truth. I would look at it as if your subconscious is testing you. This is like a very difficult IQ tests or a very in-depth learning experience. I would also suggest that you talk to the voices and ask them questions. You have to think about this rationally and killing yourself is never a good idea. I went through a period of my life when I was battling with voices in my head and although most of it was really freaking me out I did learn a lot from the experience. At one point they tried to talk me into jumping into a raging river flowing out of the mountains in the middle of February. They said that I had to baptize myself and it was imperative that I did it ASAP. Of course I questioned them on this because the water was so cold and moving so fast that I surely would've died. I must admit that there was a few times that they almost had me convinced but in the end I won the argument. Another time I heard my father's voice in my head telling me that he was on a plane on his way out to visit me and that he was gonna show up at my house today as a surprise and guess what, he showed up. The great thing was that my girlfriend at the time was very skeptical of what I was experiencing so when I told her that my father was about to visit only to have him show up later thinking he was going to surprise me helped her realize that a lot of what I was experiencing was real. Basically what I'm trying to say is that these voices in your head are very real and are a part of you or the universe. I would lean towards Spirit energies coming to you and the ones you are speaking are not necessarily good but if you can communicate with them in a way that you get to the bottom of what they are trying to do and you will grow from this experience.

I guess your body is like a computer but even if it was there is still no rational reason for why you should kill yourself. Ask the voices questions like why do you want me to kill myself or prove to me that this is a computer that I must escape. Tell them things like I love my life and don't want to die. Treat the voices with respect but don't do anything against your better judgment.

 

^^^ dont think its accurate to say that these voices are real. even when somtimes they are. because the lenses we are working with are far from clear. our filter is mucky (unless you are a buddha). what im trying to say is the energies we´re taking in that manifest themselfs as voices are often mucked up with our own energies. this is a very complicated subject we´re talking about. if your to clearly channel, then you yourself must be a clear channel. i have absolutly no doubt that you did hear of your fathers suprise visit before he visited, however i dont think that is reason to believe that these voices are nessesarily external, or that they are nessesarily true.

this is all very complicated....a personal journey that none of us can walk for the op.

 

^^^ What he is experiencing is real and the words are relavent to his psychy and what he is to learn.

 

i did get to a part of the trip where i felt like i was talking to my parents and they seemed really scared for me

i asked them why and my dad said because i took acid

my friend turned into my mom and she was crying

i was so convinced that i was going to die or i found something i didnt wanna find

 

fuck aliens

 

sounds like youve had a revolution in your life and you cant leave your trip give it time like others have said eat healthy drink lotts and thes voices should leave you. or maby youve realized something that you just cant understand so these voices are staying there till you understand them. just give it time but if its still there i recomend getting some help dont risk your life over some voices