Depressed and done with trying =[. Help?

Hi i'm 15 and i'm positive that i have problems. Mental and physical problems. I've known i've had them since i was very young. I was recently diagnosed with wilson's disease. For a while it was a relief that i knew what was wrong with me. But my depression has worsened... depression is a symptom of wilson's disease, but it has been 3 months since i began medication. The doctor told my parents that i should be better by now but i still feel terrible. Suicidal. They don't believe me but i go to school everyday in pain. Even the teachers have stopped putting up with me. I almost never pay attention in class anymore and i know i can. I know i'm smart. but i don't have the energy. My friends are begining to abandon me too. =[. It's like the only people who understand are the ones who have the disease.. i have no idea where to turn. The more i sleep and try to get better the more school work piles up.. and my grades decline. I feel like i want to stop caring but they keep telling me that grades are always number 1.. but why? if i tried to push limits to get better grades i'll become more sick. That's not happiness. at least i don't think. i wish i could have a break.. just one break. some time to even start getting better..

 

I dunno about wilson's ,but marijuana is cool with depression. don't try it if your tooo yourng.

http://www.420magazine.com/forums/medical-marijuana-videos/76584-dystonia-research-parkinsons-like-disease.html

 

You should find things that you love and surround yourself with them.
Also remember that the teenage years are particularily difficult years for some, and that this is just a phase in growing up, so dont worry bro look on the bright side that everything is going to be great. Just remember, if you have never faced any hard times, you will never learn to appreciate the goodtimes that come.
Stay strong bro

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well i don't have any marijuana so that's not a possible answer. But i do love to play guitar and listen to music. It's sort of my only friend sometimes. I don't do sports cause i can't stand being bossed around by the show offs on the teams. I just don't know what to do because i know i'm sick but if no one believes me it's like what i say doesn't matter to them.

 

Well friend then listen to music and play it alot. If you focus on it with concentration it is therapeutic i am sure, and would function much the same as meditation.
Also if you like sports but might have a problem with other team members, then try an individual rather than team sport. A friend of mine used to be in alot of trouble from the police, but about 5 years ago started practicing tri-athlon, and now has totally turned his life around and is training for the next olympics.
Try find positive things and ENGAGE in them alot. I am sure you have heard of the saying "you are what you eat", well you are also what you think, so try think about positive things even when you are feeling down. It is seriously difficult i know, but if you do it long enough you will think yourself happy, since happiness is a frame of mind.
And realise that while often in life we come across people who dont care about us at all, there are many who will care. Besides, i think that the people dismissing you believe you are only going through a normal teenage hormonal phase, so it's not that they dont care. Sit your parents down in a rational and calm way, speaking to them as politely and intelligently as you can and i am sure you will see different results. They DO love you afterall.

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that's exactly the problem. They consider it normal for a teenager to be depressed to the point of wanting to die. I never fully understood why they consider it "normal" but it's pretty ridiculous. I hope someday teenagers won't suffer as much as they do now. It's like there saying "well i suffered greatly, that makes it okay for every new generation to suffer as a teen =]". Very selfish. Thankyou all for the replies.

 

it seems that everyone's "troubled teen years" are different, some high, some low and pretty much every way you can imagine. it doesn't matter so much what our parents experienced because we're not them and living their lives over. each person's experience is unique but any time someone feels so depressed that their only view of escape is death then something is seriously wrong. punk your parents are playing the denial game and from what i read they're a bit out of touch with reality. you seem to be in touch with yourself though and that's a good thing. is there something that is bothering you and has been for a while? since before you were diagnosed? whatever you do please don't do anything foolish, like bring about your demise. hang in there too. one of life's consistencies is change and you never know when it'll change to favor you. so stick around. maybe all depression really means is that it's time for some mental/spiritual growth but i don't have the answers, only you do. i'm here if i can be of any help.

 

yeah they are in denial. Along with my school but my friends aren't. Mainly because they feel the same thing.

 

Write it up to a design flaw if you want but that's what being a teenager is all about.

You're changing from a child to an adult and with it come different hormones, moods, emotions, thinking patterns, pain and wanting to die. Pain and wanting to die pretty much describes my life from 13 to 17. That’s not to say it is okay but it is pretty normal.

As for doing something about it, almost everything has been tried but nothing really helps.

Drugs and alcohol don't really help, they might dull the pain but they tend to postpone the adjustments that you need to make to be able to cope with being an adult and then when you stop the drugs, you will still need to make the adjustments when you’re older, less resilient and not under your parents protection.

Suicide is the only thing will stop what is happening but killing the patient to cure the problem is not really a cure is it?

I sorry to hear that you have to deal with Wilson’s at the same time you’re dealing with this.

See if you can get your parents to help, maybe home schooling for a while so you can work at your own pace or maybe even take a year off from school. As has already been suggested try to find something that will take your mind off it, sports helped me, sometimes it seemed like I was playing softball or baseball 24/7.

And always remember time is the solution, when you’re 25 you’ll be telling teenagers the same thing; “it’s normal and everything will be okay and don’t commit suicide because things are pretty good on this side of your teenage years.”

 

that's the problem. Everyone grows up and tells the new generation that they are normal and there supposed to be suffering giant amounts of depression. I honestly don't think hormones can cause the pain some kids feel that makes them kill themselves. It's a combination of school and their parents. School meaning getting up at 6:30 every morning to get pushed around and called a faggot for 6 hours then go home and get yelled at by parents for grades. And on top of that having any mental of physical disability to worry about is insane. Which is what i've gone through and am going through. It shouldn't be normal. We as a society are doing the WRONG thing to make our kids successful, and when i'm 50 years old i'll think the same thing. We are killing our youth. And on top of teens going through all these things, people tell us that drugs are bad. honestly drugs are sometimes the things that save tons of kids. They certainly aren't good for you but would you rather have a kid smoke a joint and feel better for a few hours or have him kill himself? They pin us down so much that we really have no where to go to escape.

 

That is not the problem, the problem is being a teenager. Maybe it shouldn’t be normal but it is. Normal means what most people experience and quite truthfully most people as teenagers experience what you are going through and most survive.

It’s been going on for thousands of years, what would you do to change it?

My parents did not push me for grades and I got mostly c's and d's. Still as I said, my life was mostly pain and wanting to die. So being pushed for grades, although it doesn’t help, is not the problem.

As for drugs I didn’t say they were bad, I just said they weren’t the solution.

My nephew started drugs at 13 and now is 40, he has used anything and everything to stay high, including sugar, he’s a diabetic. At 40 he’s losing his sight and lives in a homeless shelter and has the maturity of a 13 year old. That doesn’t sound like much of a solution to me.

It’s only natural to want a quick solution to your problems but in life sometimes there are no quick solutions. Being a teenager is one of those things, it just takes time.

PS You don't have to wait till you're 50, when you're 25 you can write me and tell me how wrong I am.

 

I'm 21 and still struggling with the depression I've had since high school. If you really feel like you want to die you need to get some help. See a counselor, talk to your doctor about anti-depressants. Sometimes it's not just a phase that you'll grow out of.

 

My advice, start running. If you can't run, jog. Don't go crazy with effort, just get outside and break a sweat. Escape. Find someplace peaceful and deserted and stretch for a few minutes. Then jog back. start 3-4 days a week, and work up.

 

I agree with you that if you're 21 and still feel so much pain that you want to die, you really need to talk to someone about it.

But remember that everyone from time to time feels depressed and that's normal.

I even work up a good depression a couple days a month and I'm 60 but I've come to enjoy them like an old friend that has come to visit or maybe more like a thunder storm with lots of wind and lightening that cleans the air and leaves everything clean and fresh.

As for someone like PunkHippie who has Wilson's, he should already be seeing a counselor and a doctor because of that.

 

Wow, I can't imagine what it would be like to deal with that, at any age. The world we live in is depressing. When you're a teen, you're starting to realize that you have to grow up and be a part of it. That sucks! You have to deal with that, while at the same time not getting support from parents. I don't know your situation fully, and not everyone's parents are the same. But it seems like kids don't get enough support these days, if they ever did. I don't have much advice to give without feeling hypocritical, as I'm depressive right now myself. But good luck.

 

k. So i'll grow up and be depressed again. I know it's nothing better than it is now but it's an illusion that makes me feel remotely better sometimes. And as far as teenagers always being depressed for thousands of years that is a load of shit. I'm sorry to be an ass. I have friends who don't go to normal school and there parents teach them pretty much their whole lives and there happy at 15. It's not just being a teenager that makes us depressed.