so i am a very depressed person. i'm not oging to sit and type my whole story out, but i do have something to say. i met a girl who honestly changed my life this summer. we went out and she helped me get by with my depression and actually i was feeling happy in life. but she also has problems, like severe anxiety, goes to counseling...anyway, even though we were together just barely 6 months, there was no doubt i fell in love with her, and she loved me. we both loved beatles and listened to them all summer together and it was just the best time of my life. but just one day in december she said she couldnt handle the relationship anymore. i was devastated because she was my bestfriend and she just stopped talking to me. i cant even listen to the bealtes without feeling like shit, and ive been listening to them all my life. i hadnt talked to her until about a month after and shes already moved on to an 18 year old highschool dropout (shes 15 btw) anyway idk what to do with myself i have been so depressed and lonely and havent even met anyone new. everything just sucks right now and im so unhappy. i dont really have a question or anything, just had to get this stuff outttt. any comments or anything?
My high school sweetheart and I both loved to Beatles. And we were both each other's first. And then 2 years later (after our first year in college) she left me. I think it had a lot to do with my new weed habit. It sucked. I couldn't listen to my favorite band anymore. Far worse than the break up itself. Girls will come and go in your life - if you're like most people. But losing a favorite band is one tough cookie. At this point I can listen to them again. You'll find the old saying "Time heals all wounds" carries a lot of truth. Good luck to you, friend - during this tough time. Know that the teenage years are some of the hardest life has to offer.
I can't tell you how much I relate to pretty much everything you said. You had me with the first sentence, lol. I should start off by saying I'm pretty heavily depressed, mostly based ever-present loneliness There's no words to describe the ever-present emotional pain that heartbreak carries. I'd have to say it's been one of the worst things (possibly the hardest) I've ever been through. People can tell you things like "You'll find another" or whatever other general advice there is, but it doesn't change a goddamn thing when you go home at night and you're sitting there alone and feeling like absolute shit. Honestly, I tried everything to stop the pain. From drugs to distractions, but it will always come back. In time things hurt far, far less, but for me (now a couple of months out of an almost 2 year relationship), it still hurts a pretty decent amount. Difference is it only hurts sometimes, instead of all the time. Him and I were *very* close and like you said, best friends. We spent nearly every waking moment together. And one day he just got bored. I never fucking understood it, and I think only certain types of people can just drop things like that and feel nothing (or repress it extremely well). It feels like the ultimate betrayal. It's going to happen again too. It's just a fact of life. Relationships and love sick addictions. No matter how much you get hurt you'll always come back for more. And people think drug addicts are crazy . So with that stuff said, this is what I did. I suffered like I had never even thought possible for 5 straight weeks. I couldn't get high enough to stop the pain, and all I wanted was deaths sweet embrace. For everything to be over, for good. I knew that wasn't reality, but it didn't stop me for contemplating killing myself and thinking extensively how everyone I know would be affected, about what I hadn't done yet in life, and if I cared enough to stay alive to do it, the people I hadn't met, etc. After that first 5 weeks I started to go from feeling this immense emotional pain everyday, all day, to being somewhere in between that and my normal depression. Now I still think about him, I still get upset that he doesn't talk to me much, and I still think about all those memories and all the shit we did together. Best medicine for this is to create new memories. Sometimes you look back on memories and think you'll never feel that way again, when in reality you absolutely will. Memories just glow like that. And they cause myself a lot of pain. You have to hang out with friends and do what you guys like to do, and try to meet someone new. But you need to be ready for another relationship. Don't let it be a rebound. That's what your girlfriend did. Shes with someone else to stop the pain of being alone. Maybe she really doesn't have feelings for you anymore (because her and my ex sound very similar) but whether or not she does, she's masking the loneliness by dating again. THAT's a rebound. About the thing with the music. Oh god. I can't listen to the entire decemberunderground album because of another ex who I spent an awesome summer with. Those songs bring me to my fucking knees. And I love AFI. Just listen to the Beatles. After a few listens the memories will start to detach themselves from the song. Try listening to them all over the place. It's not impossible to overcome that, it just really sucks. But music will always be there =) I didn't expect to rant. But it's been a long-ass time since I could give someone advice from direct personal experience, and I like doing it.
i'm glad you did rant! just hearing someone else who went through the same thing is a feeling that im not alone, sort of? ha thanks for taking your time and telling your story, for some reason it made me feel a little better, and i actually listened to "our" favorite beatles song. i smiled, cried a little, but i think i might be able to handle a few more songs
Exactly, stay strong. And of course you should feel better. Seeing other people have gone through the same shit.
My ex fav band was sublime which just happnes to be mine... and I'll be damned if he takes that away too ha!... Things will get better! Time does help!!! Good luck!
