everyone is getting engaged, married or is pregnant

I just found out 3 (more) friends are either just engaged, got married while we didn't talk, or are pregnant, or everything at the same time, or have kids or..

I seriously can't take it anymore, what the fuck, I feel fucking old.

When I think that I was supposed to be the first one married.. hah..

K I know it's not necessary and it's not a competition but I can't help feeling old and like a bit of a loser in the midst of all this.

 

I don't know why, but when I hear that someone got married or engaged in my circles..I kinda feel sorry for them.

 

know the feeling, my three close friends are all engaged and i'm all alone boo, and my other friend has a baby and another friend is due in march!

 

I really don't wanna get married if I don't see myself spend the rest of my life with the same person or.. I don't need a marriage to spend the rest of my life with the same person if I'm fulfilled with them, but.. and I don't know if I want kids. My point is, all these people my age are getting settled and doing real grown-up things - like having kids, and.. it just makes me realize I'm getting old. And it bothers me in a very immature way like.. cause I don't like being behind. I know this is a very dumb assumption but whatever, I feel it a bit. I don't know if it means anything - but.. it's just.. well I really don't know how to explain, most people probably aren't gonna understand me or take it the wrong way.

 

I totally know what you mean!

Even my friend I used to hitch hike and be all wild and free wheelin' with now has a house a husband and a baby...

Sometimes I start to feel like I'm really childish and should start to be influenced by my friends who are making these types of choices...but then I remember how much fun I have being the way I am...and frankly I dont want any of those things right now...and there's more then just getting married and pregnant to having a fulfilling life....like thats great for those who want that, maybe in like 10 years or something I'll want it too...but for now I want to be a circus burlesque dancer and travel and have fun....and I feel really good about that dream over getting into committed relationships and saving for houses and cars and whatnot...and I'm only 21

It is strange though when the aspirations and choices your friends make are so different- kind of a weird feeling, but thats ok, each to their own.

 

You're right! And I guess I wanna say I'm "only" 23 well 24 tomorrow but with everyone getting settled around me I'm starting to wonder.. well.. am I really still *that* young and is something wrong with me? Or is it just everyone else.. haha

 

Anyways I know age is just a number and blah blah blah and I'm not a conformist either but I mean I just feel like in a way if everyone has already found someone who wants to be with them forever and if they feel mature enough to have kids already at my age or younger! I just feel like a loser.. like it seems like I'll never get any of this/will never feel like this.

 

I think 24 is still really young.

But that's not even the point, I think my point would be that everyones life choices are their own, and just cause certain decisions are more common does not make them better, or right, or more fulfilling.

 

George Clooney is my patron saint. 44 and unmarried, baby!!

 

I feel that. But I figure when/if it's the right time you'll feel/ get whatever that is

 

that's true.. I wish I could stop feeling weird about it. I definitely won't get married just cause everyone else is doing it or anything like that I'm not like that but.. I guess I just have this side of me that wants what everybody else has that I don't have even if I don't need it. Or at least I feel weird when I don't have *something* that everybody else has or most people anyways.. but since they're people around me, my friends, friends of my friends, etc. they're like my little world..

 

I <3 George Clooney.

 

Penny, you think it would be different if you were a guy?

 

Give him a blow job.

 

Oh I totally would.

 

OK.

 

Maybe.. I don't know.. none of my guy friends has settled yet except maybe one or two sort of.. or they're older, not my age.. I know I'm dumb. Really I'm embarrassed for feeling the way I do.

 

Don't be silly.

 

my mom didn't get married until she was in her 30's

 

I have a serious problem, is that I feel certain ways sometimes and know perfectly well I shouldn't and why I shouldn't and I always give people advice and stuff and I can't apply it to myself, and I can't seem to make myself feel the way I tell myself I should feel even though I have great arguments.. like for example: "well, I'm worried, I know I shouldn't be cause this and that and this and that" and if someone feels the same way I come up with great advice to help them feel better yet.. here I am still worrying. I must be insane.