I have decided.

I have come to a decision .

I'm going to kill myself. Sometime around my Christmas and New Years holiday break (which, btw, starts NOW). Not on Christmas, or on New Years day exactly. That would be overdramatic and look as if I were seeking attention. Possibly the day after Christmas, or January 2 or the 3rd. Make it really inconspicuous.

Why am I divulging my thoughts to this forum? Idunkno. I just felt like it. Self-evaluation says I want pity.

The thing about suicide is that I deserve it. Suicide is the solution. Why is this? Because I've been absolutely, ridiculously LAZY. I do nothing. I feel like doing nothing. I contribute nothing to society. And I have absolutely NO motivation to change. So you see: suicide is the solution. If I won't change for the better then I have to end my life; its for the goodness of society.

Hooray for death! Death. The End. Nonexistence. Total obliteration of consciousness.

I know people will say things like "ohhhh don't kill yourself" and God Bless your Hearts, but deep down in your hearts, you know that this is for the best of society. And you know deep down you don't care either ways if I live or die. Because my crying about how must I hate myself deserves to be stifled with the drowning gurgle sound I make as I take my last breath, so to speak, by drowning myself.
Why choose the holiday season to kill myself? Because with the holiday season comes this long holiday break from high school. It gives me enough free time to be able to psyche myself into kill myself (because lets face it, deeply seated in the human unconscious is an urge to LIVE...I experienced this deep urge firsthand from my first "attempts" at suicide...these "attempts" involved trying to actually get myself to leave my house at maybe 3am in the morning to walk to that bridge that is just over a body of water...I couldn't do it. I somehow convinced myself that I wanted to live. That urge is strong, and I'm going to need to trick "myself" into kill myself.) Also...I don't know. I just don't want to shock my classmates by killing myself over a normal, short weekend. I just thought it would be less of an impact if its done over a LONG holiday break.
Actually, I don't want my classmates at all to know I killed myself. I don't want to depress them. To let them down. For them to go "oh, that kid commited suicide, he's weak".

 

oh no, don't.

 

LMAO. you're funny.

But my mind is made up. You can't convince me otherwise.

 

what method have you chosen?

 

so why don't you make a decision and change your life?

on the other hand, from the sounds of things, your choice will be beneficial to the human gene pool.

 

Hope you do it in Times square on new years.. getting kind of tired of the stupid ball dropping thing myself....

dont this go againts your do nothing lifestyles.. Its going to be doing something
Really nothing for you, youll just wake up from this dream, with a new set of consequences.. If you really knew thats the cells that keep you alive and consciousness are living and dying every single second of your existence you would think differently....
I think you need a science book for christmas..
or a large lump on your noggin.. bye.

 

Drowning. I can't swim.

See the ingenuity in my plan? I probably wouldn't have the balls to hang myself.

Drowning is kind of an artful way to die, actually. You gracefully sink towards the bottom, then you begin to grope around you wildly, beginning to feel the exasperation of having no air. Then you grasp for air, and take hold of your desperate neck, choking. Then you slowly lose consciousness to gracefully go on floating...dead.

 

shit just got real brahs

 

Geeez we didn't get to know ya.. Oh well thanks for sharing.

Peace

 

drowning is meant to be very comfortable, but only just before the end when your mind accepts death and enters into euphoria.

I would recommend a series overdose on opiates, though. heroin or morphine.

best of luck. hope you succeed. hope whatever's next treats ya better than what ya had here.

 

Go for it mate. I recommend a heroin overdose, they're all the rage over here in Scotland. Good luck, and nice knowing ya.

 

...seems like a valid option, you know, rather than changing things up a bit in a conventional, talking to someone and doing shit about it... seems reasonable.

Although, not very original... did you know this season has the highest suicide rate?
It's cold, people overspend money that they already didn't have two times over, lots of economic hell... probably best though.

 

Nortt would approve.

 

Ahhh, i know this is probably a joke but i just can't treat it as such.

Dude, if you're in highschool, you're probably very young, there is a lot of time to change, you don't even know that it wont happen naturaly.

But i need to ask, what have you (or haven't) done that makes you believe you have no right to life?

 

Update us once you've done it; else we'll just be sitting here wondering.

 

I hope this is some twisted joke.

Life is precious .

 

Well, I don't even know you, so yes, it would be a bit too much to tell you not to do it.
But just think about your parents. Do you really wish to hurt them? They will miss you - though I don't know much about your family. But I doubt they'd remain indifferent about something like that.
Highschool may not be the best time of your life. I've been way better of before and after the highschool years. Which were, not to exaggerate, my worst years!
But believe me, your life doesn't end in highschool. You won't stay in highschool forever.
You could do lots of things afterwards.
Anyway, do you know how many unworthy people can be in highschool? Who are lazy and leave school and don't care about ever becoming anything in this world? Who steal from their own house, their parents' belongings, buy booze with the money they're given to pay electricity or something else, don't go to school, only care about money, and the way they make them doesn't matter much.
Just reconsider it all.
You're not the worst person.
There are plenty of lazy and stupid idiots in highschool and they think they're cool and everybody hates them.
Come on... don't take things so seriously...
You're still young...
Not that this meant much to me at the time, but finally I managed to get over it all and I realize now how much I've changed over the years.
Change is possible.
It would finally be your decision, but you might at least try to reconsider what you want to do with your life.

 

I hope it's just a joke, though it's not a good one.
However, we all have our moments of feeling low.

 

I think it's a joke.

If not then well, it's the persons choice.
I can't stop them from here.

 

actually drowning is not as nice and comfortable as you may have heard. you can hold out taking a breath but eventually your reflexes kick in and next thing you're conscious with lungs full of water. the brain can survive a couple minutes without oxygen. so it's actually quite a slow agonizing way to die no doubt you will be wishing you hadnt done it 100 times over.

high school may suck, but once you're out of it you can do whatever you want. you never get another chance to experience life, so if there's anything you want to do id say do it first before you kill yourself, then you might decide doing what you want and being alive is a better alternative to ending your existence and just becoming more dirt. i personally plan on going wild and living in the middle of nowhere away from all people one day.