i got a hit of acid its a geltab. ive never done it but ive done shrooms. When i tried shrooms at that point id never done any drug not even weed i only had two grams but i freaked out. very very long story short but i jumped off a 12 foot wall to try to kill myself its like i felt death over and over and saw peoples reactions i literally felt my body stop breathing i was so lost in my own head. this lasted about 6 to 7 hours i was just some crazy guy running around in apartment complex with no shoes and ink floyd pajamas and felt like i was dying and i kept hearing ppl but no one was around. I kept reliving certain moments in time over and over in a circular notion. I thought i was talking and thought i cudnt stop so i bit my lip until it bled trying to shut myself up lol. then at 830 in the morning i realized i was alive and went back to my friends they were all happy to see me alive. then i worked a 12 hour shift at sonic haha second trip i learned to control it a little bit but i get anxiety and small panic attacks. i put my head under a pillow for 3 hours listening to comfortably numb over and over and for some reason i looked at my ipod and it said it was the beginning of the song but no matter what all my brain would let me hear is the last part of the solo at the end very very clear. then i was finishing my trip i was out of my head and back into reality and i had to finish my trip in the bathroom because thats when i understood everything. i understood the trip i felt like i understood everything and all i could say apparently was "im almost there" so shrooms flip me out i think its cuz of the anxiety and my heads never right i only have to eat a couple stems and i trip harder than my friends i dont think ive actually had what one would call a good trip yet i mean theyve changed me for the best i view life different in a good way and nothing bothers me anymore no problems emotionally or anything except since then ive become scared as hell of death so should i take this hit of acid or what do u guys think?
But in a serious note, if you freaked out on mushrooms once, doesnt necessarly mean your gonna have another bad trip, i guess it all depends on the mood your feeling but please If you decided to dose, have a sitter to keep you safe The last thing anyone wants to hear is you jumping of a higer building and dieing. Dont give acid a bad name.
yeah i know curiosity will eventually get the best of me and ill take it i just dunno if by myself in my room or with people. cuz on shrooms i think partially people freaked me out and my rooms comforting eh idk. oh and i took more shrooms but fell asleep before they kicked in and i woke up tripping a lot haha
well even so theres no way to tell if any of that will make a difference, the first acid trip i took i was at home with my sister, i was in my room for about 3hrs freaking out i freaked out worse tryin to have a 2min conversation with her (her face started dissolving)
yeah i think taking something to relax me would help cuz somewhat often ill get anxiety or small panic attacks which usually happen also when i take anything. idk i just havent felt right lately its hard to describe but i think muscle relaxers might help.
Acid makes you think or over analize everything just be prepare for Every understanding of the world N urself to go out the door
I am torn part of me says just do it, fuck another part says "this kid has not even tried marijuana, and mushrooms cause him to attempt suicide? do not go near lsd"
haha yeah i kinda have a thing with anything green i just hate everything green like lettuce...yeah lol whats your website then?
In the future. When you feel like you are dying from psychedelics take note that is NOT your physical body dying. Your physical body is not dying, you need not attempt to kill your physical body. Rather, that is your psychological self dying, your spirit dying, it is your spirit, astral body, simply trying to disconnect from your physical body. This is ok, you do it every night in sleep, just it's a little ajar when you do it consciously awake, cause it is much like dying. But it's not dying even if it registers as dying, it's just your non-physical body trying to leave the physical to look around for a bit of time. You must lay down and let it go. Don't go running around, don't be trying to kill the physical body. Just lay down on your back comfortably, breathe from the stomach, take in full deep breaths slowly and let your whole body go numb and then lift off!
do alot of reading and research on the effects, read trip reports... learn what to expect under the influence. wait till you are in a good mood nothing shitty going on around you or with people close to you. relax most of al. dont control it, let go!!! let it control you.
