You can take the cat out of the jungle...long

You can take a cat out of the jungle but you cant take the jungle out of the cat.

Sadly this is where I find myself now.

The fact is I know realize who I truly am.

Some of you know about me and my past. I was hoping to put my past behind me.

But the fact is I know at my core I am a what would be called a King Pin or a mobster.

I walked away from this world of" Families" about 5 years ago. I was convinced I had escaped my past.

My past caught up with me yesterday.

I feel sad I cannot change who I am. I also feel bad that blood is going to flow on the streets of Antigua Guatemala...well at least the blood of 2 people. That is always the way it starts...

I really am sorry I cannot escape who I am.

But since I am who I am, I must embrace who I am.

Everything changes for me now. No turning back.

It is time to plan my escape to South America. I have an organization to build.

Can we change who we are? I was hoping to be able to say yes.

But now I understand sometimes things are just destiny.

I love you all here. This place has been good to me. You are all fine people. Even all you asshole and ass kissers.

If I do not post again by next Tuesday, I will be dead.

So I am going to hang out in RT and post for an hour or so.

Some of you know me in real life. Those of you who do understand this is not a joke.

Fucking life is a trip. At least I am high.

 

Did you order people whacked?

 

Whacked is not a term I use.

I am going to have my people "take care" of a situation.

 

I can see how it'd be hard to forgo certain privileges once you have them.

 

That was a good ending .

I have nothing to say besides that. I used to think there was a difference between letting things happen and taking some action, but now I know they are the same thing.

Good luck? Hope we see you again around here.

 

Yes it is.

I just feel sad. The realization that I really am a monster inside was a bitter pill to swallow.

Funny thing is I know how this game ends. It is just how long I cam play the game before I lose the game. No one wins this game.

I now know I am most likely going to die a violent death.

Personal realizations are a bitch.

 

Aha!

You dirty philosopher you. :biggrin:

 

I might be much worse than you. Only I don't have The Gambinos to back me up.

 

It can be done, I know from first hand knowledge, you break contact with all, and move out of the city. I've been away from the life for 18 years. Good luck and Peace

 

I might be dirty, but definitely not a philosopher (but thanks? haha)

 

Fuck them up.....and good luck

 

very interesting

 

Thanks everyone for responding.

This was good for me to vent and rant.

I wish I could post more but my high noon is upon me.

It is time to take care of business.

I will try to post again after 7 or 8 pm tonight.

If I can get out of Guatemala alive I will be fine.

 

Well UA , I called myself a cynic when I first tried to deduce your original career

I've been in the world of (ahem) "colourful selfstyled businessmen" , and yeah many say they "cant" change".But sorry , my view is they love their way of life and dont want to change.

I believe done right , someone can start again.No matter how much their phone clicks or their picture has darts thrown at it.


But it means BIG CHANGES.
Good luck.

 

Good luck! :cheers2:

 

good luck

 

I'm curious as to the story, behind the story, but Im sure you want to share that.Hopefully you wont die, or at least it wont be too violent of a death.

I dont think you're a monster, I dont think we're anything. It's just easier to understand (justify) our actions when we say "this is the way it is, because Im this way". When really it just is what it is.

Blah. Now I really feel like Im philosophizing. Damn you Cherea!

 

See!

 

Kind words eh Autentique

True we dont know exactly what UA did.But noone can judge without all the facts.

Anyway , I know a guy who did all sorts of shit and grassed his friends up.
He's building a skyscraper now.And he's as "thick as two short planks" ie stupid.
And I know he wouldnt feel hard done by if he stopped lead.

Oh well....