So i was checking out this dream dictionary online to see what my recent dreams mean and then i thought lets check if they have anything on LSD cos thats something i used to dream about alot. To my surprise they actually did. Heres what it said; To dream that you take LSD, represents an awakening and expanded consciousness. You are looking at things from a new perspective. I know it could just be bullshit but it kind of makes sense. I first started dreaming about cid around the time i took a course on sociology (which is actually what got me interested in psychedelics). That course changed my entire outlook on life so i guess you could call that my awakening.
I began to realize everything is subjective. Prior to this i thought i knew exactly which direction my life was headed. Everything was simple and set out. But this made me question my beliefs. Its one of those things that just really opens your mind and makes you think about things you otherwise wouldn't. Religion was probably the first thing to go. Since the age of 16( i was 17 when i took the course) id been having my doubts about organised religion. Thanks to Marx and Weber i let go of it completely. Studying about crime and deviance was probably my favorite bit. "Deviance is in the eye of the beholder" that was the opening line. Something that'll always stick with me. This pretty much opened me up to the fact there is no right or wrong. But the one thing that really got to me. The 12 foot dick slapping all our assess known as... CAPITALISM (and don't talk to me about communism cos we all know its all the same). So you've got all these perfectly laid out institutions; religion, governments, nuclear families and the media. And every single fucking one of them does nothing but maintain the status quo. Be a suit wearing zombie from 9a.m to 5p.m and from 5p.m to 9a.m be a happy consumer. They'll promote their ideology and you can either obediently get on your knees like the whore they want you to be or you can die out in the cold. Its that simple. Thats all the choice there is in this world. Well i hope that explains how my outlook on life changed
Congratulations! Not every one has the courage to question their assumptions...and let go of their attachments. I also went through at least three periods of tremendous change in my outlook. And I plan to go through many more! I'm still young!
Its fun isn't it? Kinda gives you a reason to live. Even if it does depress the shit out of you Oh by the way i forgot to mention. The reason i began looking up on acid was because the effects of the drug seemed to be so in tune with what i was learning. I was amused as all hell when i found out two of my teachers at school were into it in their college days. So they sat me down and we had a nice long talk about it. Whats sad though is. I still haven't gotten my hands on it! Why god why?
