i love life too much...it sucks

so much that i want to drop out of school. I'm a straight A student who loves being smarter than people and loves learning but I'm smarter than my teachers and actually feel stupid when I walk out of school because of how stupid some people are that are around me.

I love sports and games. I play tennis, hockey, skiing, swimming, golf, football, poker, cards, fight MMA, and watch and follow every sports league with a passion. That's what I love. I would do it all 24/7 if I could.

I love music. I listen to it...not the shit that's on pop radio today...I write it...I play it...I love it. It comes naturally to me.

I love law. I want to be a lawyer, but no law school wants a kid with liberal views and no high school diploma.

I hate mass religion. Think I care about salvation and death? Why waste my time praying to something I am 99% sure doesn't exist just to have a coin flip chance that I'm right about heaven/hell/whatever. DOn't know, don't wanna know, don't care...

Why can't we all just do what we want to? Why do I have to sit in school and learn condensed, inaccurate versions of what I already know?

MY confession is that I know the world, I'm overjoyed, and I think people need to fucking open their eyes.

 

well, I felt the same way you did, that's why I did drop out and carved a new path through these dimensions. People try and trap other people into this strange rhythm, and it's all wrong. My being will not tolerate that, could not...it hurt me so much to do what everyone else was doing...It was clear what needed to be done. I have visions of where and who I want to be, and I try and reach as many goals as possible, all while embracing the uncertainty of chaos. godspeed.

 

I know how you feel, I was SO bored in school sometimes, but trust me you will never be in a posistion to change anything if you don't get an education

You can do alot more damage to the system from the inside then the out, just remember that. Don't drop out

 

school just popped into existence not too long ago
and yet
so many people believe in it
think it's the only way
well guess what
you're brainwashed

do it if you want to do it.

you don't have to do any of it...

 

Come on, people. School is important. They teach you some things that are very important (like reading). However, our school system is messed up and avoids teaching some very important things. We need to fix it, but you're never gonna be able to fix it if you drop out!

 

I have to wonder what country you live in. In mine, non-liberal laywer is a contradiction in terms.

 

suddenly i feel stupid, dumb and not sporty at all, :banghead:

 

I know this all too well..

I can offer some psychic(ish) advice, though, you may be here for a reason, give it time but don't put it out of sight, you never know I suppose...

Peace

 

First of all, don't believe anyone who tells you that the only life paths available to you, or the only means to change the world are those offered to you by the system. This is the most despicable, destructive lie you will ever hear.
The system is self sustaining, and seeks to snuff out any positive social movements, and systematically eliminates any option for a sane existence. Any change made from the inside can only serve to make the machinery of death more efficient.

I dropped out of school. Like you, I liked learning, and even enjoyed school for a time. I did a lot of leaning independently as well though, and eventually started to see some holes in what they tried to tell me. Then I started to see much of it as outright lies. I was very unmotivated. I was put through various special ed programs, "retard classes", etc. Mostly because I either was completely uninterested, or was openly contradicting what I was being taught.
I was very intellectual as a kid. Almost more than now. I had an awareness of various social problems, some history, a thing called the environment, and an awareness that there was a thing called industrial pollution that was ruining it.... But it was merely an abstracted, intellectual understanding. I could not identify with wild nature, as I had only an vague understanding of it as something being "out there", abstracted from myself as a human being. There really are no wild things where I grew up.
This would have been around when I was 16. I had lost a family member, and school was more tortuous than ever. I rarely attended. I eventually heard about a city project to put an expressway through the last piece of wilderness in the area, which, after about 50 years delay, was scheduled to start soon. A blockade was erected. I decided to pay a visit. I was completely taken aback at the number of dedicated people who came out in support, people I had no idea were out there, let alone living in my city. I didn't know such things were possible. As I spent more and more time there, I came to have a much deeper understanding of those things I only understood in an intellectual sense. I started writing about things I only later identified as "eco-socialist" or "primitivist" or anarchist- I had never really heard these terms before. That's when I broke completely from formal schooling. I just couldn't believe in the concepts underlying what I was being taught, never mind the curriculum itself. I couldn't imagine spending three more years in school only to prepare me for a lifetime servicing the machine. And I couldn't believe in the idea that a piece of paper was all thats required to validate a person's intelligence.

I don't advocate dropping out. I sure as shit don't advocate staying in school. It's an important decicion. What I do advocate is critical thinking, and listening to your heart. Ask yourself: Who decides upon a curriculum? Who decides what enters, and what stays out of our cultures intelectual canon? Are these people neutral, or does what they decide we should know represent and further a certain set of cultural values? And if so, whose? Is your education really helping you grow as a person? Is it helping create a world you want to live in?
Think carefully about this. Many people will tell you, have probably already told you that you will ruin your life by dropping out, you'll never be able to change your social conditions, you can make more change from inside.... But if your heart knows what it wants, what can you do but follow through. My decision to drop out has led me to some unique and enriching experiences. They didn't come as a direct result per se, but I would be a much different person if I'd stayed in school. And I have spent much time educating myself- In things that matter to me. Basically, I made a choice, and am living with the consequences. Overall, I'm glad for what I did.
Good luck, and godspeed.

 

YES!!! Thats the best post I've read all day. Right on. I totally agree with you.

 

You might wanna stay in school kid.

With intelligence comes the ability to discern between maturity and immaturity, and your post is full of the latter.

 

It's been said again and again that the primary function of schooling is socialization. This seems to be what Neodude is getting at. The question to be asked once again is, what social or cultural values are represented here, and are they helping me to develop as a unique individual? Or it is just preparing you for a job that is "acceptable" to you? I personally found that with it's emphasis on conformity, it only inhibited my spiritual growth.
I really feel that the default condition of our body, mind and soul is one of wild, unconditional freedom. If you feel you love life to much to stay in school, it would seem to me that you're a perfectly normal and healthy human being. School cannot teach maturity. Maturity comes from making your own decisions and learning from them.

 

If you were honestly progressing along a spiritual path, emphasis on conformity or basic principles of societal conditioning would not impede you. The spiritual path is beyond those things, and it can function with or without the presence of them.

What I was getting at is that is that it is always better to leave your doors open rather than leave them closed. If he drops out of school, that will just be one more closed door that he wont have available to him later in life. I'm not saying that he will necessarily need anything from school, but it's always nice to have the option, rather than not have the option at all.

School really is not that big of a deal, just stick it out man.

 

School is like an enforced, formal social interaction program, while still filtering out the idiots and the entrepreneurs or w/e

I think highly of myself too but still, you need school for a multitude of reasons

 

All this is true. However, what I said still stands. I won't advocate either course. All I can say is what I did, and how I feel about it now. It may be that I'll feel differently in twenty years, but I doubt it.
I also don't think that a spiritual path is something that transcends one's physical and social conditions. In fact I think these things should be the primary factor in making these kinds of decisions. As Derrick Jensen said, it's absurd to live our lives as though our lives did not exist. Compulsory schooling can be a soul crushing affair. It's perfectly natural and healthy to decide to leave.
All I'm saying is that if you feel inspired to do something else, there's no better time. You can always finish high school through correspondence later, and in many cases that little piece of paper won't make any difference anyway.

 

So, I'm curious. Did you decide one way or the other?

 

It is not ignorance that is the enemy of wisdom, it the illusion of wisdom.

 

Crazy horse is the person you should be listening to, Amazing 1. If school is taking the joy out of your life you should realize that and start action to get the joy back into your life... like dropping out. There are PLENTY of opportunities that open to an individual's long term life when he has all the time he needs to learn whatever he wants. You can pretty much do anything your heart desires. You just have to think in terms of the big picture, spiritually, controversially, and critical thinking like crazy horse said! Good luck! <3

 

You just need to learn to accept the world as it is. To accept other people for what they are. Nothing more.
I think you're very lucky to love life and to be so smart.

 

your conceited. your amazing at everything good for you! can i bow down to you now "theamazing1"? if i ever met a kid like yourself, id kick the shit out of you mr. MMA.

.. people like you make me sick.. too good for school, too smart for the teachers, go kill yourself.