I find myself just getting caught up and worried about so many dumb things. When in reality my life is so simple. 1. I wake up in the morning, altough its a little hard to get out of bed and get through being cranky its not that hard. everynody does it. 2. I go to school. its boring yeah, but i only have six months left and its not that bad i mean damn go sit in a warm building for 7 hours and do some sheets and sleep half the time. 3. Come home, i dont have a job to go to, i dont really do much but sit on my ass on a couch andlisten to musicand think about shit. haha how simple is that? mylife is so easy. im 17 no responsibilities really. about to be 18 and about to graduate and go on to find a degree in something at qa community college(not sure, but i got plenty of time to think of something interesting ) and go on with my whole life. i might have a little anxiey and paranoia, but its all in my head. i got mywhole life ahead of me to enjoy im in good health no responsiblities and really no problems but ones i put on myself with my thoughts. life is good. i got alot more left. hell yah. no complaints. i just need to chill out and take it easy.
You remind me of me when i was 13/14. Find something you enjoy/like and do it in your spare time. Build up some skills for when your an adult. ATM im learning Krav Maga, so i can fuck up anyone who fucks with me when im older. Also i draw alot. Now i need to setup a portfolio for a future art course, so all the drawing has made me alot better and more prepared. Im also learning to play guitar ( i have put this on Pause due to many things become priorities). Just think of who/what you want to be, and do the shit you need to do to become who/what you want to become. I used to have paranoia too, YOU CAN MAKE IT GO AWAY. LoL life is such a fucked up experience, it only truelly becomes fun when you see the boundaries everyone follow dont have to be followed. School. My advice is, dont fuck around here. I didnt for most of it, but due to many causes failed last year, fucked my exams in the ass and got left for shit. Now im trying to fix that through college, when i could have just done 2 years of A levels and went straight to university. Education may not seem important to you as an individual, and most of it is not. But it is the key which will open up many possibilities. Much better ones than working for shit pay in some crappy town, getting no respect and wishing to die everynight. Life is what you make it, dont expect everything straight away. Work on it, keep your future in mind. Drive yourself forward, and eventually you will succeed in being/living whatever the hell you want. =) Pm me if you wana talk dude. Adolescence is really fucked up, im still dealing through it - but can offer much advice depending on situation. Peace
yeah man. i play some guitar. for a few years now. mostly i just pick around with scales and chords dont really try to learn other groups songs. yah, life can be fucked up and see mweired at times, cause it is but i mean hell i like being alive honestly. i mean i dont really see a big point to it but i just enjoy being alive cause at times it can be pretty pleasurable. i never was much into art but i used to wnrite alot maybe ill get back into that.
Haha im actually writing a book too. My much older friend says its interesting, and of a much more maturity/complexity level than for my age. He said this when i showed him the first page. im like on chapter 5 now. I think its really really good. Also from experience, two things help a ton when shit gets outta control. When youre pissed at how shitty everything is, how stupid people are, how nothing is perfect - listen to your fave music (to me Tool atm id say) - you will appreciate that there are somethings that are good. Also when youre really angry, and like one nerve cell away from going postal on the world, just wack off. Lmao by the time your done you will be alot more chill.
thats cool man. writing a book and all. i never wrote a book before but i was a kid writing all kinds of stories haha. i really like it alot, like to think about shit in my head which is far more interesting than "reality" haha. and write of it. fuck yeah music is the shit. alot of the smiths and cure as of the moment is what im into man. whacking off haha, something to do with endorphins i thin it why it chills you out. porn is a pretty good invention sometimes imo haha.
Chill out, you are on the right track, and that is realizing they are nothing problems. For people who stress about the little things, there is a cliche saying: "it's not the elephants that kill you, it's the ants" Try thinking positive: Easy does it (but do it). One day at a time, remember: The mighty oak was once a little nut that held its ground. "Those who abandon their dreams will discourage yours" "Minds are like parachutes. They only function when they are open. " A few to live by, I forgot where I heard these, I never got any names, the people were pretty anonymous.
If you find yourself having anxiety and paranoia just do something, anything. Sometimes those things come about when you are unproductive.. or at least thats how it started with me. So yeah.. and just remember what you are saying now, its all good. =)
sounds like by realizing this... youve solved your problems, just remember this thread when you freak out and youll chilll
yup, i really like the house picture man house is great! "If you find yourself having anxiety and paranoia just do something, anything. Sometimes those things come about when you are unproductive.. or at least thats how it started with me. So yeah.. and just remember what you are saying now, its all good. =) " yeah ive realized ireally am unproductive, when i was younger, i was always like going skateboarding, hanging out with friends and walkin around town getting into alot of things. now i reallly am lazyas fuck, i sit in my house all day and basically thats it. i never thought of it before buti feel the need to get involved in something. i mean a group witha similiar interest in something so i can get out and put energy into something besides the dents in the couch haha.
you've made some important realizations at a young age. good for you. there is never a cause for worry, never a good reason to complain. it's all good all the time, and it could always, always, be worse.
yeah man. i mean how hard can my life be? i've got food and water easy as fuck basically whenever i need it. other countries would kill for a meal. im in good health, i wasnt born with some kind of crazy as disease or have hiv or cancer you know shit like that, ive got all my limbs im breathing fine and my brain is still firing pretty good. i could be sittin in a hospital bed or mentally handicapped somehwere. ive got warmth and shelther, people right here in america dont even have that shit dude. my life is easy as fuck. all my problems are trivial in my mind. my life is fine, could be better, if i put effort into it. could be worse but id have to buck up and worth through it. oh well its al good dude. just gonna put some more effort into life.
