The most terrifying experience of my life

Hey everyone. I want to share my experience of using salvia with all of you because of how shockingly frightening it was. So, here goes:

Okay so my friend and I had been wanting to try salvia for a while, and so one day we went to our local head shop and bought some (what was labeled on the package as) 10x salvia (though the price tag said 30x). We headed back to my mom's house and went upstairs to my old bedroom. We set up some cushions and pillows and stuff, and we had some hip hop music playing. I took my bong and packed the slide and took a HUGE ass hit, held it in for close to ten seconds. As soon as I exhaled, it started.

My body twisted in on itself, and everything went black. Then suddenly, a whirlwind of images exploded out from withing me. I couldn't really tell what the images were, it looked kind of like galaxies at first. Anyway, the images were spinning around fast in a black void, thats the only way i can describe it.

I felt completely detached from my body. I wasnt in the room at all. I didnt know where i was. It seemed to me that everything I had lived up to that point, MY LIFE ITSELF, was a lie and didnt exist. This swirling reality was the truth. I would never ever get back to my reality, my existence. Thats what I felt like.

After being trapped in the middle of the spinning vortex of images for what seemed like hundreds of years, I started to make out what the images were. They were pictures of the room that i was sitting in, with my friend in it. Hundreds and hundreds of scenes, almost like individual comic strip cells, of the room with me and my friend sitting there. They were all spinning around above me.

Suddenly, I was pulled inside one of them and became one with the realities. It felt like I was trapped inside a 2D comic, and yet my body was split into hundreds of pieces. I spun around endlessly, over and over again, within the comic book rooms. I remember thinking how horrible it felt. I thought id be stuck like that forever. I think I starting screaming, and after another long period of time I became concsious of me screaming. Somehow, inexplicably, I was trapped within the 2d spinning comic book versions of the room, and ALSO AT THE SAME time I could see myself screaming on the floor. It was a completely out of body experience.

After spinning around endlessly in the "rooms", though i could also describe them as realities or other dimensions, I was thrown out of the rooms and they started to fly by me in infinite lines on both sides of me. I started to feel more of a conscious and started to become aware that I had a body. I ran desperately through the tunnel of flying realities, trying and searching for dear life for MY LIFE, MY REALITY, cuz i was sooooo scared i wouldnt get back. It was kinda like running in the small space between two train tracks, in between two moving trains, only instead of train cars, it was visions and scenes from the room and my life. In the distance, one of the scenes became a little more prominent, and the version of my friend that was in that scene started to move around and call out to me. As that room came closer, I reached out desperately trying grab a hold of my reality. I came to the conclusion in my mind that that must be my life, that particular room, that particular scene. I grabbed a hold of my friend for dear life, and suddenly i was back in the real room. Everything was vibrating and i was scared out of my mind. I REALLY THOUGHT I HAD DIED. I shouted to my friend, "OH! OH MY GOD, THANK GOD I FOUND YOU. HELP ME SAVE ME. OH IAN, IS THAT YOU???!!!?" (my friends name is ian)

I gasped and let go of my friend, who was trying to talk to me. I got up, and walked over to the door, and opened it up. there was nothing but a vast dark void outside of the door, so i slammed it shut. Suddenly, it felt like i was getting pulled back into the spinning void, so i jumped and grabbed a hold for dear life onto a pillow. I closed my eyes to escape, but when i did i was flying through a dark tunnel, which was fucking scary. i opened my eyes, and started to breath deeply, trying to relax. I started to become aware that i was finally back. However, every 15 seconds or so id feel something like wind pulling me back into the void vortex world thing ( i dont even know how to describe it), so i was still really really terrified and clutched the pillow. the entire time, i had been hearing demonic noise, kind of like chanting, only it was really off key and scary (i guess that was the hip hop music). i can only describe it as demon children chanting and playing instruments. haha yeah i know that sounds insane but thats what it was like.

After a bit i couls talk to ian and all i could say was how scary that was, how scared I was, and how i couldnt even believe it.

Now, Ian told me afterwards that what i had been doing the entire was screaming at the top of my lungs for a while (and I mean like as loud as i can), and then i got up and walked around and stuff, and then i grabbed the iPod player and picked it up and started yelling at it. But i wasnt yelling at it; i was holding it out in front of me and looking up at the ceiling and yelling. I wasnt saying any real words, i was spitting up and saying incoherent noises. I grabbed him really really tightly and was saying, "friend! friend!" He said my pupils were dilated PAST my iris (in other words, completely black, he said he could see my iris within my pupil).

Afterwards, when i was finally back completely, i went outside to relax. It took me almost a week to convince myself that i in fact existed and that everything was real. I had never had that kind of experience before, and i can only describe it as a near death and out of body experience. It still freaks me out to think about it. I really did spend close to a week convincing myself and trying to prove that i wasnt insane or delusional and that this indeed was real life. Even after that, from time to time i had to stop and tell myself that this was real. I know that sounds kinda crazy, but the experience was that profoundly altering.

That was my experience with salvia. Im never doing it again. I dont care if i just had "a bad trip". That was fear incarnate, and the scariest and most disturbing thing I can even comprehend. Imagine not existing at all and not having any control over your body, and thats kind of what its like. I dont even know man. Basically, the entire thing is completely indescribable and ineffable, and even what i wrote hear doesnt come close to actually showing what it was like. You cant really ever understasnd unless it happens to you.

Crazy, crazy shit. Anyway, thanks for reading about my experience, feel free to ask me questions about it and post your own!

 

Oh yeah and I should also mention that I was in a great mood at the time, and I was super happy and looking forward to and really curious about psychedelics. I had had a great day that day and was in a really great mood, so I dont think i couldve had that experience because of emotions or anything. I think that salvia is just insane and random haha. Anyway just fyi so you dont reply saying that i was in a bad emotional state or something.

I will admit though that it completely changed my life and taught me to have a real deep and profoundly new respect for life, my life, my body and the earth and my entire universe. It was really deep for me.

Also, could anyone explain what LSD is like at all? Or just try maybe haha im curious, as salvia flew me immediately into another dimension, but i want to know what LSD or shrooms do. I've heard they're not too similar, but Im just wondering. Thanks.

Peace

 

I'm too tired to read all that.. but I'll just let you know LSD and shrooms may be slightly less intense, but can last up to 8 hours so IF you couldn't really handle salvia (i didn't read so i dont know if you could) I'd be careful and make sure you're with someone expierienced and oyu know what your getting into

 

Holy crap I can't read all that, this is just a time taker before I hit the sack.

 

TheWizzardman, Salvia can be like that. Also similar is 5-MeO-DMT. They're both arguably not typical psychedelics because they're not mellow. I understand that shrooms can be intense on the come up (never done shrooms) and that shrooms & acid have a long duration, but at least you can take your time to relax.. or prepare maybe. Salvia and similar substances in duration and intensity, like 5-MeO-DMT, are really not recreational.

 

Haha okay read it when you're not too tired then.

whitemagic, yeah I've heard that about shrooms. And yeah i'd definitely agree salvia isn't really recreational; definitely NOt mellow

 

and Im gonna put a bunny here too..

 

lsd and shrooms are totally different. much more enjoyable.

 

HAhA I remember my first time and having to reach out to this place called normalcy, and after I was back I totally had forgotten that I was tripping, then I ran outside for air. Fucking hilarious, thanks for the laughs.

 

Wow thats an insane experience, but you shouldnt fear it you should let it swallow you

 

Yep. Salvia's most certainly not legal pot. LOL.
Do not underestimate just how profound an experience it can be, regardless of past experience with other substances.

I've had experienced trippers (mescaline, lsd, shrooms) try mine, I always like to see how it affects different people.
In a full breakthrough on salvia, despite its actually being a short trip, more than one person discounting it due to their knowing all things psychedelic were shocked by the experience.

Hell, when I go to salvia land I don't even have reference points for existance and even during my first breakthrough I felt "oh shit, I'm back here, that was all fake." Or something similar given there was no actual words to speak.

"It seemed to me that everything I had lived up to that point, MY LIFE ITSELF, was a lie and didnt exist"

This is actually feedback I've gotten from some more intelligent people I've known to try this and have a breakthrough. It's not an uncommon perspective while tripping. The eerie (and cool) part of it, is, as I said, even on my first try, thoughts of a familiarity and being "back" to someplace were prevalent. There are so many ways to speculate on that.
The most disturbing part, potentially scary, is that for me and others, "that" place is more real than this game of life ever was. Initally I felt like this whole world was a trick, fake. I've later come to believe as trivial as life feels compared to what is experienced on a salvia trip, what we do in this puppet show is of utmost importance to something bigger. So yeah, don't jump off a building.

 

what a beautiful experience!!!

You are lucky that lady salvia has been so generous

Wizzardman, this is why Salvia is one of the most powerful drugs you can ever do. Most people dismiss it as lame and think there is nothing to it, but they just don't understand what you and I have been shown.

Don't worry friend, you aren't insane. Let go of your fear, it isn't doing anything to you. Salvia can be very scary if you don't know what to expect, but now that it's over, try to reflect back on it now that the fear is gone and think about what you were shown, not just visually, but what you were shown from every aspect of your being.

you've been taught a profound lesson, if you can just decipher it.

 

Well, that was long.

I dig salvia, but it can definitely be scary. I was a little scared my first time.