I really just wanna drop out

of university. i have like 1 or 2 years left (i dont even know i dont even care) but i dont know if i can do it. like, i hate it so much. so i can get a piece of paper? so i can get a nice job at a desk and be a good little boy?

what the fuck is the point of it? whats wrong with just saving up some money, emigrating to france or something, and fixing roofs or something.

i have 0 ambition. 0. i never did have any, i was always like this, and taking that acid trip a few weeks back really changed my outlook.

i'm wasting my fucking day here writing an essay on canadian politics. talk about fucking useless shit. i mean on the grand scale. sure, if i wanted to be in government, its useful. but i don't. i just wanna bang on my drum all day.

my problem is i have such simple fucking needs. can i walk? cool. can i have some music? wicked.

done

i know this is such a whine but i gotta post here and talk to my friends before making any final choices, i respect a lot of the posters here and wonder what you all think

just to be clear . . . i will do fucking anything to avoid schoolwork, and i hate it so much that i had to take a 2 year break because i had a nervous breakdown (not that bad) over coming to this fucking building and playing their cute little game of going to courses and learning this nice little neat package of knowledge that will help me have a BIG BOY desk one day. OH BOY!

am i just deluding myself in the first place? should i just drop out and go work at a tatoo parlour?

what tortures me is it would destroy my parents . . . thats the only reason im doing it really, but im starting to think that putting myself through torture just so they don't feel dissapointed is not the right thing to do. I mean, it's OBVIOUSLY not the right thing to do, but i always thought it would be no big deal and i could do it out of love for them. i guess i feel like i'm failing my parents.

thats' it. see, i'm fine with it, i'm just crushed to think of the look on their faces when i tell them i'm dropping out, sorry i wasted thousands of your dollars, i'll pay you back with my minimum wage job.

and i fucking hate minimum wage jobs because they are just as torturing to me but from another angle, the treat-you-like-human-garbage angle like i would come to work with an uzi and mow down management . . .

argh man i dunno. im fucked if i do, and i'm fucked if i dont.

btw i'm in sociology which is utter bullshit. i feel like maybe if i changed directions into a hard science like mathematics or physics or something i would love it, because i read about that as a hobby and it thrills me, but i dont think i have 10% of the work ethic to go through with it and get a degree.

yeah i know whine whine . . .

whats a guy supposed to do though

and it's not like i have forever to decide

like, if i dont do these essays, it's decided for me; i fail. so on top of it theres a ticking clock in my face saying "you have 4 days to decide the rest of your life".

 

find something you love to do and do it, and keep getting better at it...the passion will follow, unless your a total fucking loser...

 

do the essay's, then you buy yourself more time to decide.

 

Don't look at me. I'm screwing off when I should be writing apps to grad schools this week.
Weigh the good and the bad.
Prosperity vs happiness. Family vs self, and then look for the road that leads to what works and feels right. Watch out though..that's the route I've gone and yet sometimes I find that the choices I've made don't make me happy like I thought they would. Such is life. Always have an exit plan.

 

totally! I think it's important not to make rash decisions just cause your stressed out. That being said, if you don't want to be in school then quit. It's a lot of money and life to put into something you don't care about

 

Take a break...you can go back and finish later...

 

cate every time i see your new sig I start singing "ya know it's hard out here for a pimp..." lol, i love it!!!

 

hi I agree. I'm in art college and have taken a year out after every year I've done and never once regreted it. I just had a baby so haven't decided if I wanna go back next year. I think if you realli wanted it wouldn't be that much of a problem to complete. If you don't have the passion or drive for it then there isn't much of a point...

 

hahah sweet:cheers2:

 

yea, can always finish later

i haven't finished...and the longer i'm out, the less i want to go back
but thats because i'm doing something else right now that has great potential to be awesome

 

Yeah that was a good movie.

yeah thanks everyone i had responses to you all and closed the window by accident

i feel better than 5 minutes ago and am 90% sure after this year i will take a break, possibly to never return.

 

Take some of the political stuff and put it to music, if you like music. Find other people to do the assignments with and do something creative with it.

If you can't be a success for the system, at least be a success for yourself.

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yo what school are you at righ tnow?

 

im sorry i had nothing to contribute to the original post mr. writer....i'm sure it'll work out for ya though:cheers2:

 

Mr. Writer

You might try getting involved in some uni stuff. Clubs etc.

Thats what keeps me in education

drop out if you want! But decide what else your gonna do before you do, even if it is just live off the rents :tongue:

 

I'm happy with myself no matter what I do. I don't have any ambition to be better at any bullshit society wants me to be better in, because that's not what I want. Like, I have personal ambitions, I play the piano very well, I want to learn guitar, I love reading, even writing, I'm a movie buff, I love cuisine and parks and friends and etc etc, like I'm not a boring person imo, it's just the "inside the box" stuff I can't handle. i honestly wish I could though because it would be easier

word kizen, and thanks mary

cate i go to utm ya heard?!

 

nice

 

I quit and I don't regret it. I do plan on going back later though.

 

About 3 years after I quit university I got sick and was pretty much stuck with awful qualifications, had to work shitty jobs with no energy in order to pay for my medical bills, managed to get myself overseas and had mostly a bad time. I had to watch while all of my friends got themselves PhDs and high paying jobs, which payed for their amazing round the world trips.

Now, obviously every case is different and if you're still a healthy whippersnapper then you should be able to make a lot out of life at the bottom working crappy jobs, but some security is good, not because society says it matters but because it will give you more freedom to do what you want to do in the future and it will drag you out of the shit when you need it.

Think long and hard about your future and try not to be whiny pussy (not saying you are). You might have a really good reason to quit, or you might just be scared of a measly 2 years without remembering that they could buy you many more years of freedom and security. Don't be impulsive, be smart.

 

Sometimes you have to change things up a little to go forward.