Im honestly.

yea, i don't remember a good amount of my child hood. i don't remember being in therapy for what happened - even after talking to my parents about it, and talking ot my counselor at college about this...but i've been told i was in therapy. so yea, it sucks that all that is blacked out in my mind.

 

You alright today dude?
HUGS

 

HUGS

 

I was sexually abused at a young age, and it took me years to unblock that from my head, its your subconcious mind blocking tramatic experiences, kind of like your mind holding that untill your actually ready to deal with it , i always believed. then again, at such a young age, confusion is a normal thing, so it could take time to be able to put the pieces together.

 

After reading this fucked up shit...do it, pull the trigger, take the pills.......cut the wrists deep.

After 20+ plus fucking pages....fuck post the pic of all the dead gerbles? they pulled out of your ass and you might get an " Oh hell hes all fucked up"

Hey hook up your web cam so we can all watch.....

Sorry folks but the self pitty shit kills me....sounds like fucking trish went overseas and got a sex change???????

I was sexually abused at a young age...by alot of hot female babysitters...why complain????

 

You dug this up? at least i dont pretend im not fucked up

Anyway, you're just another out of touch old man please just die already.

 

you're just another out of touch old man......

Fuck, at 40 im living the dream life (other then almost really recently almost died) retired, new home, and run two 10.5 outlaw drag cars full time.....and have zero debt.

Yea im out of touch, wondering why all these crying lil bitches.....well just you at the moment...think this is a fucking rehab center......

If your that fed up with yourself and the world, go make a bold statememt and we will all see it on cnn.....but no. one has to take up her "trish" slack.

 

Yet you still feel the need to read through this whole thread and drag it up, how happy could you be? oh unless you find me super interesting...

Hey man, untill a mod or Skip complains i will use this place as i see fit, im not going to tell anyone else what to post on here... im not sure why you feel you have the right.

Anyway, keep this up, it doesnt make you sound like a whiney bitch at all.

 

some "peace keeper"

 

wow. people are so angry here.

we needsta get up off some grillz, unless they're openly askin' to have ya up in there

and xac hasn't asked for that yet

as we all know, as soon as someone does ask for someone up in their grill, I am there FAST.

like barry allen.

 

What....you're dream life? Not everybody has the same "dreams" in life. Oh, and if you're referring to the "American dream" than congrats....you've basically sold your soul, originality and considerate thoughts all to gain a buck. Generally those who are out of touch are too caught up in material things to be "in touch" with humanity....so claiming you own material goods isn't really gonna help you gain any credibility in that department man.

Ever consider that you don't know everything about the posters life? Meaning that you have no ideal if he has anyone he can talk to about these issues...perhaps the reason why he posted in the first place. Please unless you have anything constructive to say just leave...the last thing someone needs, regardless of their emotional state is someone like you hinting that they should kill themselves rather than reach out to people in an attempt to get something off their chest and/or receive advice.

Uhhh...no one should ever "get up in another's grillz"....it's never really called for unless it's in self defense (not just physical self defense though) or if good can come of it.

 

this thread needs a bunny,..


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=etBqNC2K0Xs

'Cause you feel life's unreal and you're living a lie
Such a shame who's to blame and you're wondering why
Then you ask from your cask is there life after birth
What you sow can mean hell on this earth
HELL ON THIS EARTH!!

 

in defense of my friends, I will tear the face off of any motherfucker who needs it.

that's how things are.

 

I dont doubt it, you're a big guy Dave.

 

Xac, I know quite a bit first hand about trauma, depression, and isolation. I feel for you, and understand there are no simple suggestions that will work.

I also know that you won't want to hear this or agree with me, but getting drunk to cope is not going to help the situation. Also, I'm glad you arent taking the pill route. That is just a short term feel better cover up with ridiculous side effects, and the people who are convinced they actually need antidepressants have been deceived by conventional medi$ine.
I wouldn't recommend you admit yourself either, but if you genuinely feel that you are a threat to yourself, then maybe you should consider it. You know yourself best.

The things suggested here such as proper diet, exercise, vitamins, and all that really do work.. but are more effective against mild depression (probably what most here have experienced), or keeping depression at bay. When you get to the point where you can handle more, it would really benefit you to get some healthy habits like that going.

Anytime I was very depressed, I would tell myself 'Ok, youre in survival mode. Eating, sleeping, breathing. Those are your focuses.'

I don't have much else to add other than you are going to have realize that you have developed thought patterns that arent working, which you can change. Don't worry about why you developed them, we know why. Just focus on the idea that they aren't working for you. I think I saw somewhere you're a psych student? Start reading up on conditioning, behaviorism, learned helplessness..

It doesnt happen overnight bro, its a synergistic process. Hang in there.

And the drugs are a catch-22. You often think they are helping, then may realize in retrospect they could have been perpetuating a lot of things. So you might want to really consider laying off for awhile, or training yourself not to turn to them when you're upset, especially alcohol. Once you feel yourself gaining coping skills outside of the bottle or bong, you will feel empowered and continue the progression.

Feel free to pm me if you want. Take care.

 

I do actually agree about the alcohol and by the way of course i know about learned helplessness, behavourism and conditioning, classical ,operant... you dont even get pass if you dont know about these ideas.

Cheers.

 

um, he has explained this before..
his name comes from this,



LGM-118 Peacekeeper



that should explain it..

 

provided you dont fall out with a seizure in the middle of it...

 

Of course.

Low blow.

 

Are you really that nasty of a human being? I always just thought you were just grumpy until now.