Ever not wanted to be the better person?

That's how I feel these days. I even try to not be more unapologetic but the guilt usually is too much to bear. I want to be selfish damn it. I don't always want to be the one to apologize. I want to be right. Even if i'm not.

 

wanna wrestle?

 

Oh, it's on bitch.

 

I always try to be the 'better person' and say yeah whatever it doesn't matter

avoiding confrontation might make me the weaker person though - I can't tell

 

I'm exactly the same way.

I wonder, though, if the ability to stand up for myself is slowly being chipped away everytime I do this.

 

I very rarely have even the mildest of arguments. I just keep things to myself even the tiniest bit of deviance from that drives me insane with guilt.

 

ahahah! i love saying "bitch" after any sentence.. makes me feel mean.


*puts on role playing outfit*

 

Really? It makes me feel kind of like a gay man.
*flexes and ties cape on*

 

*greases self up*

i'm ready when you are.... bitch!

 

stop being a sissy

 

the better person gets no pussy, so i try hard to ignore my natural instincts to be that person.

 

I'll warn you...i'm not afraid to cut a bitch.*pours soap all over*I will wash you like no ones business afterward to!*jumps into fighting stance*

 

Go fuck yourself.

 

ewww no

 

My, how quickly one changes their ways.

 

Thought so.

 

never, I don't feel like I am a good enough person, and even when I am being a totally unapologetic asshole, it is for a greater good, or at least what I interpret to be a greater good.

and, so, no, I think I am a terrible person, and strive to not be.

 

you thought so what?

your lack of hate is quite disturbing

 

Eh, whatever. I hate no one except Italians and the gingers.

 

i naturally can't stand most conflict, i'm usually really cautious of how i treat people and stuff.

if someone's being a jackass to me or something i usually tend to forget about it pretty quickly. i don't really respond outwardly to threats, i just kinda keep it to myself more.

i'm happy that way though, i don't feel a need to speak out any more than i do.

EDIT: Ah, I guess I would like to be the 'better' person from time to time if i had the necessary social skills, but to be like that all the time would take away sensitivity, methinks :hat: