help with love =\ detailed post, deep? caring people needed

mannnnn you guys.
sitting here getting ready to type my heart how feels fantastic.
here's what this is all about...
i've really been realizing lately that i'm a hopeless romantic. that word has been tossed around so much, and it's meaning has never been too clear to me, until these last few months. i longggg to fall in amazing love, and just truly connect... have someone to absolutely lose yourself in their embrace, you know? i dream of it all the time man, and am not in any rush, not remotely. i have a good understanding of the length of my life... and know this RIGHT person doesn't need to plop up right infront of me tomorrow...
but yesterday at my college's NORML chapter meeting, there was this female there... she was definitely beautiful, but took no other note, and didn't dwell on her too much at all, at all really... but later that night after a meeting, we all met up to 'watch the debate'... and she was there. i gave her my seat on the bed, and just ploped a seat right infront of feet... there were quite a few people there. everyone was talking amunst themselves, and i really got caught up in the conversation that girl was in... she was fantastic man... she did impressions, and laughed and joked so freely man... not too many girls i've been meeting are truly great like this man... and it's something i LOVE in females... it seems that in south florida especially, you gals are a rare breed.
during the conversation, i didn't put too many one of one comments in, we all just conversated, and it was great... we all hung around a while, and after a while me and a few friends i came with were heading out. she ran up and gave me her number, which was fantastic. the entire night i was feeling so much more connected with her then anyone else, then any female i usually do... i was very happy man...
this morning before music class, i called her, because i knew she was waking up early to make her chem lab... we made plans to meet up at lunch, which we did around 11, then we went to my dorm, grabbed fantasia, and headed to her apartment. the entire lunch, btw, we had amazing conversation... never a dull moment, and we were SOOO much alike... i'm a very kind, pleasant person, very optimistic, always looking for good and beauty in everything. major stoner, deep insightful tripper... and she had many of these qualities man... she was definitely stoner to the core thought man. we spoke about those dry days, and just scratchign resin out of the pipes for days =P... she is also someone who see's beauty in everything, which i love.
when we got to her place, we rolled a nice joint, and watched some fantasia. we hardly watched it though, we just sat and talked, for like 3 hours... it was fantastic. i got to know alot about her. she was out of the house an don her own from 16, living with friends. she found herself with dxm(like i did), and obtained so much of her peaceful insights from this journey... she used to be very into drugs... i know she spoke of rolling and coke, and even of friends that died from h back home. nowwadays she's really calmed down, and we even spoke how wonderful it is that she experienced such a life, and at the moment, as we were speaking, has her head on very nicely, and gets to look back on the memories, etc.

well... man... i had a hebrew language class, and had to run... so she dropped me back off at school, which was maybe a block away.... the rest of the day i just thought of how abso-fucking-lutely amazing she is man... how truly kind hearted, trip-cherishing, chillin females almost never cross my path, and how this one and i were getting close, and i know we're only going to get moreso...
i dont know what to do man! i dont think i've felt like THIS for someone before man... i dont know if i should tell her how i feel sooner or later? i know there is a lot of personality to explore, but today, we opened up sooo much to eachother, and i feel i understand her SOOO well. and i know there is that connection there... she feels it to. why would she have given me her number the night before? i know girls dont generally give them out carelessly and randomly...
i dont want to say i love her man... i dotn because i'll drive myself sad man... but, i feeeeel for her man... i just want to be able to holddd her man =(. anyone have any words? i think i wrote more then enough =P
thanks guys.
peace

 

this is so awesome, im really happy for you! i know the fealing you are having and its rare & really exciting. i say roll with the flow, she seems down for you, keep things going the way they are and see where it leads. good luck!

 

it's kinda depressing me thought =( i just can't be optimistic when it comes to love, you know? i feel like it'll just end up as one of those infatuations, get INTO eachother for a week, and then just drift apart =\. i have nothing leading me to believe this, and that alone (especially acknowledging it) you'd think would clear my head up... ehh.

 

its a tough thing for me to say, but actually try to make yourself try not to feel so infatuated with her if your afraid of getting hurt that way. keep it in the back of your mind that there are many cool people in there world so your heart doesn't get too attached so quickly, this way if things don't go the way you want them then you wont suffer so much. but don't think so negativly about it though, from what you said she seems to dig you. also im saying this from my own experience, try not to think about her so often when you guys are not hanging out, because you could either build up ideas or break down what's really going on between you two.

 

Dude, I sooooo feel for you man. I am the exact same way. But, that could actually be my problem. You see, I want love so badly, that I fall in love way too easily. And so, when that girl ends up not liking me, I totally break down. It just makes me so sad seeing all of my friends find love, and I don't. But yea, I agree with what was said above me, try not to get too obsessed. So far, that hasn't been good for me, and its made me incredably depressed. But sometimes you just can't help it. Like, thats the kind of guy I am, a romantic, so I DO fall in love easily, and I become very attached. So, I don't really know what to tell you, but just don't let it occupy all of your thoughts, and you'll be okay. Good luck man.

 

yeah guys. thanks so much. i've been thinking along those lines myself a bit earlier also.

 

are there girls for us? girls ideal for us hopeless's?

 

Manamiti man: You sound like your doing good for yourself, don't ask advise of people who spend to much time on the computer, LOL!

Seriously, that is really so sweet that you feel that way about her, I hope there are more men like you out there. I was just thinking, how cool it would be if someone wrote something like that about me.

Take care

 

whats wrong with being on the computer? i don't know if you noticed but your on it right now.:$

Yo Magnanimous, i think she's tryin to get in your pants

 

I was being self-depricating, LOL! Sorry if that translated wrong.

 

Wow, that's totally awesome. I don't have any advice really, because, like others said, you're doing pretty good on your own. I just wanted to send you some good luck vibes.

Love, peace, and happiness...

 

You know, so far, I have no reason in this world to believe that there is. All girls seem to want are these dumbass losers and quick sex. I'm so sick of that shit. Doesn't any girl want companionship?!

 

oh.. my fault :&

 

i am so happy for you that you found someone you can connect with. you should tell her how you feel about her when you two are together. explain to her how you care for her. basically just tell her how you feel and go in depth with it tell her how you feel so connected with her . thats the best that i can say.

 

Listen, I know exactly how you feel.

It's different from any other beautiful girl you see, right? With the others you, just want to fuck them and get on with your life. You really couldn't care less where they're from or what they do, as long as you're up by 6, to go to class the next morning. But this girl is different. Fucking isn't the only thing on your mind. You would rather just sit on your couch and cuddle with her, or go for a nice walk at midnight, and gaze at the stars. You like "being" with her, for her, and you enjoy her company.

Am I on the right track here? Now the answer to your question: "Where do I go from here?" My response would be to game her just like you'd game any other girl. She gave you her number -- that's a good sign. Your long and frequent conversations with her tell me that you two can easily connect at a deep level. That's also a good sign. Let's give you the benefit of the doubt, and assume she's pretty attracted to you. All you need to do now is not fuck up. How do you do that? For one thing, don't call her all the time. I cringed when you said you called her the next morning. Don't crowd her; give her the gift of missing you. You need some of that "I-don't-give-a-shit" attitude. And don't spend too much time at a any one stage with her without progressing. If you don't get physical with her soon, then before you know it, she'll be telling you, "I just like you as a friend." Boo

 

that was very very very helpful =) thanks so much