so i have been taking acid for about 7 years now. i have also sold large amounts of it off and on over the years. i have tripped over 200 times and i have never taken less than 3 hits, with my max being 28 hits. i also always take all the hits at once instead of spacing it out. the last time that i was selling it (a little over a year ago) i went on a acid binge and i took it every single day for 4 months. i was pretty much tripping 24/7 during this time, rather i was working, hanging out with friends, partying/clubbing, or just sitting around the house by myself. i guess i was just wondering if maybe i have taken too much, because so many people tell me that i have changed and they pretty much blame it all on the acid. i really feel as if i am different also. i really don't have any ambition or drive left in my life, and my self-esteem has all but disappeared. i would hate to use acid as a scapegoat for all of my problems but i was just wondering if this has happened to anyone else.
It sounds like you already know the answer to your question my friend. No sense dwelling on the past now, be here now. Start recovery.
I agree with the above post, in general, but it's probably not so simple as "taking too much acid" and now here you are. I mean, what did you expect would happen if you were on drugs, LSD no less, for months at a time? Of course you've lost ambition. That always happens when people do nothing but party for months at a time. I doubt you have done any irreparable damage. But you are going to have to make some changes, and it might not be easy, especially at first. What were your ambitions before you got into drugs? Try to get in touch with that. Get in touch with yourself... get in touch with life. That's really all it takes I did nothing but smoke weed and drink (with the occasional trip or speed binge) for several years. When I got to the end of it, I was a shell of my former self. I took some time to get in touch with myself and my goals, and now I'm writing, playing a lot of guitar, and doing well in school again. All it takes is finding some purpose and finding the love. PM me if you wanna talk more
honestly didn't think. it's hard to use your brain when you have massive amounts of free drugs to ingest everyday. plus i was just having wayyyyyy too much fun to really care at the time. stupid now that i look back.
rewind to the last sane moment and go from there Certainly all your new intuitions will help you continue where you left off and make it much better and smoother than it would have been before
as long as you don't believe your a messiah or anything i'd say it will get alot better with time (and sobriety, of course). you have a long road ahead so keep your head up and stay proactive.
just stop tripping for a while and find yourself. remember, it's a gift that this has happened to you. it was meant to be like this, now embrace it. the night gets darkest before the dawn.
by the sounds of it, i would advise 2 possibilities: 1) stop using any drugs for a minimum of 2 weeks before further re-evaluation of dependence, right/wrong, and motivations 2) take a substancial dose of LSD and devote the day to understanding/overcoming your difficulties. obviously the second solution may appear to further the problems, but using it for the life-altering thought processes rather than a high may help reorientate you with what matters most to you
If you obsess with the feelings of psychedelics, start looking into your biological/spiritual blending. Both sides are beautiful and are foundation for meeting it head on
Sometimes the only way that a person realizes how to use LSD wisely is to first use it unwisely. Now, learn your lesson, take a break and move on! Give it a year or more before you consider using psychedelics again. Resist self-medicating with too much alcohol or even too much weed. These two drugs should be okay in moderation but I would avoid all other drugs for quite some time. In time your ambition and self-esteem will return. Concentrate on your physical health by eating healthy and getting exercise. A social life will go a long way to helping your healing process as long as you're not around people who try to make you feel like you're crazy or messed up from all the acid you have done. You should hang out with people who are not gonna hold your past drug use against you. Hang out with people who are supportive and willing to see you change for the better. Many people will believe that you will never recover from this and you should space yourself from these people for a long time.
yeh most people dont know what shit is going down, find the people who are honest and interested in your place in life
Id just start on some shrooms or something for a bit to kinda wean urself of the magic poison called LSD...then maybe smoke some bud till things get as close to normal as u think it ever will....
Get addicted to cocain, then you won't have any difficulty getting motivated to earn money etc. Smoke lots of weed, weed is good for that sort of stuff, weed heals everything. Or drink... you can't go wrong with drink, you're worries just disappear like that. Whatever you do, don't think about it, or re-evaluate you're life in any way. And don't think about what you've got - think about what you could have. In all seriousness, a truely meditative trip on LSD probably wouldn't be a bad thing. It might just be my mind, but I find it hard to hide things from uncle sid... even moreso with shrooms. Meditation will help you evaluate you're problems from a distance, almost like you are the system administrator rather than the system. The doctor opposed to the subject. Be honest. Only when you are truly honest with yourself, will you realise that it dosn't really matter, that much. You've found something that you'd like to change about you're life, now go do it. "The only thing in life worth worrying about, is worrying itself" Be happy. Keep smilin'
Geez, so many narc accusations... I think there is lots of great advice in this thread. The best thing you can do is turn it into a lesson, and you will be a lot better off than you were before all of this stuff happened. The advice relating to finding yourself, going back to the last sane moment, and getting involved with those who are about you is all great stuff.
