I feel that all things are part of me. I feel that every occurrence in my life is my own doing. I also look around sometimes and see people doing what they do, acting just as they act, occurring just as they would occur. I see how excruciatingly similar all people are. I think about experimenting with plant genetics and how the reactions that a certain phenotype of plant will exhibit in any given situation can be mapped out in any given environment. I think that human reactions can be mapped out as well and that every action any person takes could be predicted through this mapping. I think about mold growing on an apple looking a certain way, and how humans are just another mold growing on a bigger apple (so to speak). I do not usually wonder anymore whether anything I perceive is real to anyone but myself (if I am alone and creating all that I perceive); it does not matter. Either way I am god, I control my own perceptions as well as I am able to. I understand that no matter how much creativity I have there is still an infinite amount of thoughts that I potentially will never access. I wonder if the amount of thought that I am capable of accessing with this "mind" is finite or if it is infinitely expanding. Since I stopped using drugs I have been working out routinely and monitoring my diet to a tee. The goal in mind is to feel good. I think about whether or not I will ever find a partner who I am comfortable spending time with. I have never really had a loving relationship with someone of the opposite sex before and I wonder if this would hinder my path of negating desire. I want to at least give it a try but it seems hopeless to find a partner who is truly virtuous. Is this quest a waste of my life or should I meddle in others affairs in attempts to find someone to share my life with?
This is the LSD section, random thoughts is over here: http://www.hipforums.com/newforums/forumdisplay.php?f=51
LoL Bill I know, I was pulling his leg for posting his personal biz in here while it doesn't really pertain to LSD.
