I could be doing anything..... ANYTHING and i have these, "attacks" It doesn't matter if i'm enjoying myself at the time, but sometimes, at random and very briefly, my mind goes blank and all i can think of is "FUCK, I HATE EVERYBODY!" Its like my whole thought process is wiped clean and replaced with that simple string of words. They fill me up, until they BECOME me... like they're my entire existence for a mere second. ....Then everythings normal and i go back to whatever the hell it was i was doing and forget about it. it only happens once every other day or so. I remember one time where it happened twice in one day...
do you panic when you have them? or is it more of an outburst of anger inside you? and how do you react when you have the attacks?
i had reactions like this first thing in the morning during the waking stage. this was during my ecstasy years though.
i sometimes get to a point where i just turn a switch and i get angry, and just want to be alone. for no reason, just mostly too much pressure, and need to gather up my thoughts and collect myself
Its more like an outburst of anger, my muscles also kind of tighten, especially my jaws and my hands. My jaws clamp, and my hands just grip whatever they're holding. I don't jerk or spasm at all, i just stiffen for a second. No audible noise either, no yelping or anything.
Please feel free to disregard this post, but this all sounds like a totally normal feeling. Especially if I end up at a mall or in traffic or at the bank or some other shit.
paranoia this is the beggining even though the beggining probably happened some time earlier but this it man the only thing i have to say is dont get to warped into it
it could be that you are picking up on the vibes around you. try and surround yourself with different people. find a new spot to live for a while, or even a secluded hang out where you can be alone.
my jaw tightens when i havent taken my meds. i take it for anxiety, and my jaw does that only when i have bad anxiety. as for the angry thing, you may be using the feeling of anger to replace the feeling of the anxiety, or it could be part of your anxiety. generalized anxiety disorder (GAD) is a disorder that includes anxiety at any moment, doesnt have to be around a ton of ppl or in a huge place, (SAD) social anxiety disorder is when your around a lot of ppl etc. you can be able to take a benzo med once in a while, only when you start to have a panic attack to be able to get rid of the anger and clinching of the jaw. and go through counseling to see if theres a root to the reason that your feeling this way, to see if theres an alternative to the meds.
