I'm pissed. I have smoked off and on, more so off, for the past 4 years. I make sure that when I smoke, its dank, and that I haven't smoked for at least a month. My girlfriend and one of my best friends I smoke with pretty much tell me and give me the vibe that I am acting and trying to gain attention when I am baked. They are starting to make me think maybe I really am subconsciously? You guys tell me? I honestly have no intentions of trying to show off, I just open my mind to its most full extent and try my hardest to get as high as possible. Here is an ex. or two of what I do when i'm stoned. After the first bowl I am baked always. My jaw drops. My eyes squint to where i can tell they are squinted almost to the point of not being able to see. All i can say, and all I know to say at this point is, -- Ehh!, Ahh! Wow! I am so fucking stoned its unbelievable. I hallucinate. Not like I do when I am on shrooms of course, but I do. Ex// My buddy was playing piano, HORRIBLY. He also had a track playing while he was playing. I thought he honestly was playing all four parts. Meaning he had to have 4 hands. Deep in my mind I knew this wasn't possible, but the weed kept overriding my normal everyday response and i just told him he was the most amazing player ever. At this point I was laughing so hard that i thought I was going to die. I couldn't believe he was that good at piano. I was laughing due to happiness from it basically. I fell off the bed, (my girlfriend said it was intentional), hell it may have been but i didn't realize it. I have fallen on the ground sober laughing before though, as have all my friends. Our humor is golden. At this point I was crawling on the floor like a navy seal because I was laughing so hard. I kind of jumped on the ground while on the ground and slamme dmy head into the floor and got a huge bruise. ***This was 3 days ago. Meaning 4 years after my first hit, and thousands of rips since then*** Whats your take on this? Does it sound like I am trying to be the center of attention? Subconsciously? or, is it what i think - I am just allowing my mind to let weed do what it should to everyone and let me see a 6th sense and a new reality? I'm to the point where I will probably just smoke with a buddy who is quiet and doesn't care wtf I do and just laughs with me. grr..so angry for some reason about this.
sounds to me like your just embracing it and havin a good time. your friends are over thinking things....If they are annoyed and think you are stealing the attention maybe they are the ones craving it.
that what I think. I am just embracing the high to the fullest extent. Getting everything out of it that I can, not just a "Have fun" time. I use it ritualistically. I try to see things in a different reality in order to better my understanding of this one. It may sound out there , but hell, thats why i smoke. Which is why i do it a maximum of two times a month, sometimes go 4 months without it.
