Sometimes I have the feeling that I'm not exactly here... kinda like I"m in a dream. I feel very confused, lost, and sometimes a little anxiety. Things that should make me mad or upset don't bother me and I have little connection with people in general. Does anyone know why I would be feeling like this? I have problems with bi-polar depression, but I'm not sure if it has anything to do with it.
I'd say the bi-polar has a lot to do with it. Bi-polar and conditions like it can often lead to the things you describe. I have obsessional OCD and am border line bi-polar myself. People have also suspected that I may be slightly Autistic as well, but regardless of what label you put on the conditions the fundamantal cause is the same, imbalanced sertonin production in the brain. If you're not taking a med right now, you might consider going to a dr. and being put on a serotonin correcting med (SSRIs as they're called). I was on zoloft until recently and I'm not taking anything now. The zoloft did help for a long time, though. I just got to a point where is wasn't doing any good anymore. You may fare better with your meds. If you don't feel like a med is the right way to go, the best thing is just to talk to people about what you experience, either in person or on comunications sites like this one. My feeling is if you do that often enough you'll start connecting with people in way you never imagined. That worked pretty well for me. I hope it works for you too, but if it doesn't, its not the end of the world. Not connecting with people isn't necesarily a bad thing. Some people are happier when they have a level of emotional distance. I don't see anything wrong with that, you just have to figure out what is best for you.
