Ok so this is my first post here so for good housekeeping, hi. Recently I've gone through a very difficult patch of my life when I lost my job unfairly. I spent two months looking for a job and have only just had any success. Also my brother had an accident at work and ended up with a broken back and underwent major life saving surgery. Hes currently in the last part of the danger zone where its 50 50 if he'll walk again. During that two months the only person who knew of my struggle was my mate who I live with. He was a true friend in the time of difficulty. He lent me money to see me through and pitch my part of the rent. And was a shoulder for me to cry on. it's now been nearly 12 months since my last relationship with a woman and im getting very upset and confused. Ive found myself falling for my mate. I don't understand it. I'm not gay, ive never had feeling for any blokes before other than family members and it's worrying me. But at the same time itls not. I dont find it reason to be ashamed but theres no way I can tell him how im feeling or he'd probably kick me out. I really dont know what to do.
Well, what I will say is.... you can love a man and not be gay. You are compelled to love him, because he has been your knight it shinning armour. It might make you Bi, it might make you Gay. The only way you'll find out is if you try. Some people know from like 13 years old (like me), others take years to figure it out. But eventually, you will have no doubt in your mind. Just ride it out and see what happens He sounds like a cool guy, and remember - not all straight men are homophobic, he might not kick you out.
Things will getting awkward if your friend is just a normal guy. I have a same situation as you. I dunno wad should i do either.
