Am I going crazy???

for me is really hard to tell other ppl,what is inside me....
But I must tell you this...
Today,on one lesson,I dont know how it happeend i was starting to go crazy,I wanted to do crazy things like shouting on a silent lesson,hit somebody,run,flying thru the window,running 20 km,go in the forest,smoking cigarets,singing,dancing,and ......more things,i started to cut papre to make me feel better,I can feel my brain,is like a feeling of happiness,but its like its separate from my body....when somebody told me whats wrong with me,I startde to cry and I didnt talk,I cant explain.....
I was acting like how i was,and all the ppl aroun me asked is this a joke.whats wrong with me,my mom told me that I should go to a pisihiatrist...Am i going crazy?????

 

fuck the psychiatrist...

you're just waking up.

no, you're not going crazy.

Have fun with your silly situations

 

No your not going crazy,if you were you would of acted on all those actions you felt.

 

i d like to feel like that ,but I cant stay at school,i cant talk and explain,the music is always in my head,im starting to cry when its not the moment.....bla,bla ,bla.....

 

I get these sorts of notions all the time. What stalk said is probably right. Humans weren't meant to sit in classrooms and listen to nothing for hours on end. The world is crazy, not you.

 

Totally agree with Face Eater.

And besides, everything is music, it's no wonder why you hear it.

 

ohhhhh,im getting angry....I cant escape from school.....i dont know,but for me its not normal,yesterday my brain was normal,i cant change the filling of my brain,is like its infinite,its still,the substance is inside me.My head is starting to heart....

 

This sort of thing started to happen to me after high school. I found that I couldn't relate to anyone or tell anyone what was going on in my head. My advice, just run with it and don't allow it to stop you doing what you want to do...try and do something crazy every now and then to remind you that you're alive, try to be kind to others and never to be ashamed. It sounds like you have "anxiety", its perfectly okay, it happens to smart people.

If you do see a pshychiatrist make sure he or she is very good, honours your individuality and doesn't want to put you on a lot of drugs.

 

Quit whining and do something about it.life is to short to be unhappy,get up dust yourself off,& start the day over with a possitive attitude.

 

id do all the crazy things,but the thing is that i feel my brain separated from my body,its like I dont feel my body like my brain.....i will try something,and make some analises,about the substances in my brain....Can it be to much adrenaline???

 

Yeah, I feel this way a lot, if its the same thing. I urge you not to get too deep into the scientific side of it. Don't worry about the substance part just yet. I know its hard to believe, but even when its biological, there is usually some way of controlling it with your thoughts.....have you tried meditation, thinking in different ways?

You're not crazy. The more that you think you're crazy the more likely that you will become crazy. The world is crazy, not you.

 

Yea FE is right we are not crazy,the world we live in is.

 

I went through this same thing when I was about 20 years old.

I ended up going to a shrink myself, years later......thinking that something was wrong with me because I was always angry or depressed. However, eventually that pissed me off too....my true spirit was being squashed by them trying to fit me into some category or box.

Eventually I learned that it was my soul screaming out for me to pay attention to it and to go inward to find my true nature......

go for walks, punch stuff if you need to, read, write(this is my biggest salvation) go into nature, look into breathing techniques.

 

maries right.

get a punching bag,

kick the shit out of it.

 

We have a few politicians over here that you can begin with

 

Psychology has come a long way. I had a brilliant woman counsel me. She encouraged me to do whatever I liked and to rebel against society whenever necessary. Mostly she taught me that I wasn't crazy and that I had to stop thinking of myself in these society imposed categories or boxes. She even encouraged me to get drunk if I felt like it. Her ultimate lesson to me was to face life an do what I need to do despite these terrifying feelings of angst, its certainly possible, and when you realize you have a choice and you are NOT these feelings of disconnectedness, the mind seems to float right back down into the body again.

I really hate the idea of psychotherapy but this woman changed my life.

If you can find someone like that then go for it, its beneficial.

 

I agree it has come a long way. And to me the biggest help is Cognitive Behavior Therapy. Which is something you can do on your own. If you have the tools. I actually go to school for psychology. HAHAHA! I know that sounds hypocritical but for me it was a matter of wanting to understand my own brain and how it works. Plus I been told way too many times I should be a counselor.

For me though.....I was always more intelligent then the counselors and they just listened. They never felt I needed to be there. Then again, I do alot of inward work.

 

Cognitive Behaviour Therapy is apparently useless on intelligent people. Its essentially the gradual alteration of one's behaviour, thoughts, perhaps even beliefs. Its not right at all. I don't believe a person should ever have to think something is red when its green. Your vision of the world is sacred, no matter how dark or negative. If you're an intellectual you haven't chance in hell of altering your opinions on things.

My shrink mostly listened to me, treated everything I had to say with validity and understanding and then told me that changing my thoughts wasn't necessary, I just didn't need to take them so seriously. It never really occurred to me that I could be this dark, broody, insane freak and still make my own way in the world....its just a matter of accepting whats in your head and moving on. Some of the stuff I was taught blew my mind, it was semi-buddhist influenced. I wish I could describe it better but I don't have a Phd.

I think the reason why people need to visit shrinks over and over again and get no results at all is because they're forced to change their thoughts rather than accept them. Its impossible and unethical to alter one's absolute mind....you just need to learn to live with what you have and move on.

I really don't feel much need to ever see a shrink again, I have all the tools I need to live the life I want, its just choosing to use them thats the challenge. Still its ALL down to me, thats why I love my counsellor, she sort of just sent me off in the hope that i'd never need to see her again.

 

hmm...now im afraid that if that will end i will feel worse...Im happy inside and sad outside......
I dont know what to do...im so confuzed....

 

CBT is only about realizing that your negative thought patterns need not be. That you create your own reality.

and there are many forms of intelligence. intelligence does not just lie in knowledge. what I meant (because I would never claim intellect in that way) is that I am self-aware.