Getting fucked up

Discussion in 'Random Thoughts' started by Bella Désordre, Sep 17, 2008.

  1. Bella Désordre

    Bella Désordre Charmed

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    I am over my psychotic episode now. I had a real break down this morning, got bat shit crazy on my husband, was about to go pick a fist fight with the neighbor (because I thought she stole my purse), but now I am better.I still hate Nevada, but I am better
     
  2. Wild Mountain Dave

    Wild Mountain Dave Rainbow

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    Thats good. Found your purse I hope?
     
  3. praxiskepsis

    praxiskepsis ha!

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    Vices?

    What are those? :eek:
     
  4. Bella Désordre

    Bella Désordre Charmed

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    Yeah, I found it after we cancelled the cards. It was in my glove box.
     
  5. Bella Désordre

    Bella Désordre Charmed

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    did you get paranoid when you smoked?
     
  6. jimmyjoe1

    jimmyjoe1 toker Lifetime Supporter

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    First time i was smoking hash i got paranoid ,now im smoking weed most times im cool , if i smoke to much im sleepy , so i just have to enjoy and learn how much i can have ,
     
  7. Jennifer19

    Jennifer19 Senior Member

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    mine is :sifone:
     
  8. Aristartle

    Aristartle Snow Falling on Cedars Lifetime Supporter

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    Going on the internet. :( I like this virtual world of 2D.
     
  9. I'minmyunderwear

    I'minmyunderwear Newbie

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    i sometimes think i'm allergic to it too. i'll smoke as little as one hit and i'll start itching and sneezing and i'll even get big numb or itchy lumps on my skin. but it only happens about 10 percent of the time when i smoke, and i would think an allergy would happen every time. but i can't find any other factor to tie the reactions together; it has never happened when i'm not smoking, and like i said, it sometimes happens as soon as i take the first hit.


    anyway, i enjoy weed and pretty much any other drug. unfortunately i have a hard time not doing things i enjoy constantly, and any drug done constantly stops having the desired effect and becomes boring and pointless...

    also i suspect the people who have NO noticeable effects from smoking are the people who do it much less often than i tend to when i notice its diminishing effect on my mental capacity.
     
  10. Peanuts

    Peanuts Nutz

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    LMAO Lynsey. What crazy shit! lol

    I can relate to some of what you said though I don't normally spiral into a sex thought. Mine.. I like to flirt with my husband. I feel like I did back when we were dating. It's awesome.

    I remember my creative days. :hat:
     
  11. Aristartle

    Aristartle Snow Falling on Cedars Lifetime Supporter

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    Okay, Dave I just have to comment on your picture. The deer head is pretty key in this picture for me, second to the PAC-MAN machine, the chair, the guy mesmerized and staring off into the distance in the chair, the fact that the blinds are wide open, you with a beer in your hand and a titty showing. Your poor children.
     
  12. deviate

    deviate Senior Member

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    Since that happens inconsistently, maybe it is something in the weed or a specific strain has that effect on you. The grower could have harvested without flushing the nutrients out of the plants first for example. Mold maybe. There are a lot of variables.. but it seems that if you were allergic to the plant itself, it would happen more often.

    And about mental capacity, hmm. I can see how that happens with chronic smoking. I smoked a lot of fire herbs (2-4 g/day) for a long time however and never had those issues. Instead I get extreme clarity and focus, almost cosmic. When not smoking my mind races to the point all the thoughts distract me from focusing. Its good at least that when you do stop smoking, none of the effects are permanent and you will return to your 'normal' self. A lot of other drugs can cause permanent neurological changes.

    Also Bella, in my opinion if you get paranoid or anxious when you are high that is your mind telling you there are things to deal with. If you have a lot of stress going on or things on your mind, subconscious, whatever. Getting high gives you a conscious awareness of things you might not otherwise have.

    I had problems with anxiety when I was younger, which is one of the reasons I initially started using things like herb to calm my mind. I also had a lot of uncomfortable feelings from smoking in the past, but if it makes sense I began to consciously reject those feelings and use it as a tool to learn how to cope with anxiety and look at problems dead on. Herb is something you need to respect for sure, but not fear. It can work wonders in helping you deal with anxiety. But at the same time the change in consciousness can increase anxiety.

    Have peace and good vibes.
     
  13. Avocado Noni

    Avocado Noni Member

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    Remember what the door mouse said.....Feed your head
     
  14. warmhandedcanadian

    warmhandedcanadian shit storm chaser

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    Oh I agree with you completely. I like to take one small positive and apply it massively to my life.
    It's kinda like denial and self rightousness all wrapped up into one, :cheers2:
    I dont think teenagers should be chronic pot smokers because their brain synapses are completing ... it is a very important stage of brian development.

    However when you compare the risks to other drugs in a fully developed functioning adult, (other than extreme laziness and weight gain) it's like comparing apples to oranges.
     
  15. Bella Désordre

    Bella Désordre Charmed

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    You are such a smartey.
     
  16. nakedtreehugger

    nakedtreehugger craaaaaazy

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    i miss my vices. :( i used to smoke and drink and smoke a lot of pot....

    and i haven't done any of those in such a long time. i feel like a boring schmuck.

    prolly why i'm on here all the time, i have no vice left 'cept the internet. :rolleyes:
     
  17. praxiskepsis

    praxiskepsis ha!

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    Are you able to go to social gatherings and have fun?

    I'm on the same course as you, and I've been exercising and meditating as substitutes.

    But eventually I'm going to have to go back into social life, and assert my abstinence of alcohol and cigs. :eek:
     
  18. RELAYER

    RELAYER mādhyamaka

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    My first thought towards his post was along these lines but I dont know, I've smoked many, many an herb from many different countries even, and this happens nearly every time with me.
    Then again Im starting to have problems with psychedelics too, my last strong magic mushroom trip sent me into terrible seizures and in and out of awareness, and the last 3 times I've eaten LSD I've had the same sensation I had before the seizures started, a numb pins and needles feeling that spreads from my left hand to my whole body. So far with LSD it hasent carried over into a seizure, but it lasts as long as the trip does. I realize that this could be caused by either malnutrition or anxiety, and more than likely it is the malnutrition because I dont know why after hundreds of trips I would start to grow uneasy towards psychedelics. Then again, I know people who do nothing but eat shitty food most of the time and they dont seem to go all shocky at all when they trip with me, so who knows.
     
  19. Peanuts

    Peanuts Nutz

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    I thought you quit all drugs. After reading your posts to Lucky I got the impression you don't do any drugs and your high is your Religion. I say that with respect. I'm not poking fun at all so please don't take it that way.

    You quit opiates but still trip? Do you still smoke herb? Is that too much to ask?

     
  20. Peanuts

    Peanuts Nutz

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    Ultimately I'd love it if I could just get high on life and feel euphoric all the time. Is that too much to ask? LOL!!!
     

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