Fed Up

I'm sure you guys have felt completely fed up. I'm about to that point, my job, my living situation eveything. I just want to all it quits and start all over.

Geez.

I need to stop stressing over everything... that or become a man and flee to Mexico, I'm torn between the two. Heh.

 

I know how you feel. I am sorry. Which part of the situation do you want to change the most?

 

well, being that you are not going to turn into a man...

 

If you feel strongly about wanting to have a fresh start and start your life from scratch so-to-speak, than you should do it.. Just go out and make it happen, sure it will be hard, but the feeling that comes with it, is unexplainable and it will make you grow as a person...Making huge steps and changes in ones life, make you learn and grow as a human...

 

At one point in my life I thought about becoming a man and going to mexico. But I changed my mind. I like it here. It's nice in the garden.

Peace

 

Myself, to be honest, wich is a lot harder then what it seems...

Yes I know, I'm like a little girl inside, to scared of the real world to really exsit in it, and too fucked in the head to really care anymore.

 

i have been at that point for months

 

What would be more doable, and a more proactive change...changign your working environment, or your living? Id go one step at a time, but if you really must leap, then you must leap.

 

Shit yeah. It all sucks...sometimes.

Hey, "make me an angel...from Montgomery...to believe in this living is just a hard way to go" (John Prine)

The only thing I can really tell you (you should tell me more) is that it all gets easier over time. It gets easier with time from all the hard times and bullshit lived through.

A male in Mexico? Couldn't suggest you get the change done there but it's a wonderful place with wonderful people; Very inexpensive and colorful and sometimes dangerous.

Yeah it all sucks so take me away...but it seems no matter where I go the same ol' shit just keeps coming up

 

Yea I know. It's seems so hard to change the way you are, the person you have been for 23 year, and all of a sudden change who you are... it seems impossible, but I know it's not.

I don't want to be the person I am anymore... I don't like who I am, I really do. Physically and mentally.

 

I'm sorry, I know how you feel. Good luck, I hope things work out for you.

 

Thanks, me too.

 

Just don't give up and I'm sure things will get better. It takes time though.