I truly hate opiates. here is why

I sure hope you find something to help you feel better < and in case he might read this...Im sorry I called you DOC...I know you hated that...

 

Lucky you and I have spoken, in person, about what life is really about, and it saddens me to see that at your age and all the negative experiences you've gone through in your life that you are still turning to opiates.
You and I have even taken Morphine together, but Lucky I was able to quit them, and you know what happened? As soon as I quit, and I mean literally right away after I TRULY quit, made the promise to myself and disciplined myself not to ever let opiates have the power to control me ever again, everything in my life picked back up and got a billion times better.
Lucky you need to meditate and go back to God. The reason you are sad, the reason you are in pain, and the reason you are using these drugs, is because you are empty without God at the front of your every awareness. Everyone in this world is empty, and everyone is attempting to fill that void with material substance in order to satsify the sense of desire for that which they dont even know existis, or refuse to believe in it.
No matter what you ever try to do, if you quit opiates, you are eventually going to try and fill that emptyness with something else equally as delusional and baseless, though it may not be as immediate of a threat to your current life as Oxycontin or Heroin. In order to be able to laugh at pain and quit complaining and feeling sorry for yourself, you have to fill that emptyness with that which you are running away from, and that is divine love. Im telling you from my own experience Lucky, the second I stopped acting like the universe revolves around me and learned how to just accept the physical pain I was in, it all drifted away like it was a bad dream and I can look back and laugh at how much of a wreck I was before.
I promise you, because you are always on the forums here telling people to open their eyes and wake up, you need a dose of your own medicine. Do some meditation, open your own eyes, and wake up to the real reason why you are so depressed and suffering from anxiety. These drugs may not kill your body but you are just adding time to your karmic debt and establishing the karmic disposition for yourself to suffer much more terrible things than opiate withdrawl.
Only you can save yourself, and Im telling you, anyone with the will power and inner strength can live with physical pain. The truth is, nearly everyone feels pain everyday throughout their bodies, but they have the ability to just deal with it and get moving about their lives. The more you fall into the grasp opiates have on your consciousness, the more your body will hurt because you are depleting your resources to replenish your natural endorphin reproduction.
Take my advice, stop talking to everyone who is willing to sell you drugs because they are NOT your friends if they are bring you down with them, go back to God and open your heart to the truth instead of trying to fill it with the warm blanket that leads to utter nothingness.
God Bless +

 

what koreans?

I've talked to my daughter about meditation. I've told her when she has those moments where there is so much emotion and her actions could cause harm that it is best to go meditate. she asked me if it would keep her from doing bad things. I told her that it would sometimes but not always but if she had this tool now at 5(she is 6 now) then she will learn things that I am just now getting at 33.

Then evening she was in the shower and quiet. this generally means she's up to something. I went and peeked and she was sitting in the flow of water, om'ing and connecting.

 

Meditation will not cure pain until we are truly Self realized. But meditation will make you able to ignore it completley. It's up to you how deep you want to go. Reality is made from mind, and any pain you experience is coming from your mind. When you can control your mind, you can control pain, but if you dont believe you can, naturally, you cant.

 

Well said Relayer. You are so full of love and light. I can't wait to see who you will be in 10 years. YOu amaze me.

 

I try...but there are some things wrong with my body that fuck with me on a daily basis. I know I can go into states of being where this does not matter...
but I've yet to be there while I'm walking around, talking to people, working, etc.

I believe reality is made of mind
and so is my body
and my body has problems
and it hurts like hell, man.

And marie, I was taught martial arts by koreans and their culture. They call it Tae Kwon Do.

 

Thank you marie
It truly saddens my heart to the point of sickening to see Lucky struggle like this. She is one of the forum members here who I have met in person and have gotten to see that no matter what everyone perceives her to be like through the forums, she does have a beautiful heart but it has recoiled in horror due to very bad things happening to her in her past. I dont even know what really has happened, I can just see it when I looked at her. Unfortunatley when we hung out, we were doing opiates together and I was at the time, far more addicted than she was.
There is only so much a regular person like all of us can say to help someone, but in Luckys case she needs to embrace herself and stop trying to cover her pains with drugs. She is a very sad person, because she cares about other people and not enough about herself, a true sign of a person with a very loving heart. It's a shame that people bring her down, and really I dont know her current situation in life but if she is turning to opiates to help cope, all I can say is God Bless and good luck. I am VERY blessed that I got out while I could ,even if opiates did rob me of 8 years of my life.

 

thanks hun. for a bit brutal honesty. i love it. um i do know god. my life issa prayer but you know. im an experiment.. i am not anyone special. just a girl that loves the universal god and is also fucked up. "god" forgives me tho. anyways you hate good good points. i gotta soon go cop but i forget nothing. to deal with my deal without opiates...its sad tho when the pain is bad. god tihs sucks soooo bad. omg.

 

omg i love you for that. sooo much. omg seroiusly y oui got me. ihate msyelf. i need to die now.l thanks seriously. it means a lot.

 

Same here friend, I am not as accomplished in Self realization as Guruji but I believe his words when he says nothing is impossible.
I dont have sever pain on a daily basis, but I have had back pain due to alignment problems from sculiosis that I ignored as a child. It is uncomfortable everyday, but it is only in severe pain once or twice a month where not matter what I try it will not go away.
But here and there I will take a percocet or some kratom, there is nothing wrong with taking a light dose of opiates as a medication in our current learning state of being. But I have proven to myself that I have the will power to control myself from ever going back to 120mg+ per day of Morphine or Oxycontin or snorting bags from S. Philly ever again, because I finally opened my heart to a higher love and allowed that to consume me instead. Ever since I quit using, I have gained way too much in matters of family and responsibility to ever even dare take the dance with drugs and throw that all away, but more importantly I've realized that coming to God is inevitable, so I might as well just get on with it. Opiates are the best of lyers too, by far the most evil drug because it has the most subtle grasp that appears to not have you before its too late, and then you realize its stronger than iron bars.

 

8 years. How freaking old are you?

 

yes this is why I stay far away from that stuff...

thank you for your words.

 

23 :tongue:
I started with percocets when I was 15, and was popping Oxy 80's by 16. After that it was an up and down battle with addiction and freedom back and forth and back and forth, until this past winter when it finally came to an end lol. Never felt so sick in my life, I really wanted to die, if it werent for my son I dont know what could have happened to me.

 

I thought you were in your younger 20's. Damn.

I didn't even do my first drug until I was 20 years old. My first being ecstasy.

 

What can I say? Im like the Immortal Technique of friendships, I just say whatever the hell I feel like saying, and somehow some people still put up with me lol :tongue:
But seriously Lucky, I never said that you dont know God. I know God too, but that doesnt mean I live out Gods will. We all have work to do, but at least when we make a meditative effort towards self discipline and strive for total self control, then God wont have to forive you. It will be all love Lucky and when it's all love, life is always beautiful no matter what.

 

23 is younger 20's though, isnt it? Damn I dont want to be old! haha :tongue:

 

nope you are not old. Just hard for me to understand people having been burnt out so young. Though most people I know have had that experience....when I was 13 years old I was taking care of a brain damaged mama and special needs brother. So I didnt have those years to play.

 

Im realy sorry to hear that.I miss being a kid..

 

What do you think of Suboxone, a Psychiatrist and a good Cognitive Therapist (not a drug counselor). A team of supportive (but productive) people and the suboxone so you'll get sick if you take opiates. Do you have insurance?I was addicted to poppy tea for like a month, but couldn't deal with the constipation so I quit.

 

you don't know that.