I know the best people ever

and thank you both. seriously

 

Wow you've had a tough life.

 

nice.

jenn
you know your gramma didnt really leave right?
she's here with you all the time and will guide you. i believe that with all my heart.

she's with you NOW.

 

ehhh not really. ive never starved to death or had to kill for food. ive been thru shit but i love life. i have been okay and will continue to be okay until the day where i cant be okay no more. seriously ive been thru shit but compared to people with REALLY hard lives... im charmed.

 

I guess so. It's hard to know how someone feels until you go through the same thing. I broke a nail this one time that really hurt. Now that is suffering. Not really but it broke my nail in half...who are you again?

 

When I Die, I Want To Go Like My Grandfather Did, In His Sleep, Not Like The Passengers Screaming In His Car.

 

why did you say i had a hard life in this thread because my grandpa had massive amounts of health probs before he died? just curious.
its not that strange for an older person to get diabetes n have related heatlh probs that go to the heart n stuff...i dont think ive had a hard life cause of it. i think it's a part of the aging process. people die. people get sick. ive actually had a semi charmed life cause although there has not been money much...i never felt unloved ever.

 

I hope so. I feel kind of bad; I smoke it up at her grave one time. I miss her so much I have another grandmother on my dad’s side; we are not as close as my other gram

 

I wasn't saying it just because of your grandpa it's a combined total of everything i've learned about you over the time i've known you.

 

jenn i only say what i mean truly.

i know how much your gramma means to you but she is not gone. do you still feel her there? she loves you and what happened will make you stronger and more loving. shed want it that way.
seriously all you gotta do... is wish for her to be there... keep your mind open and she WILL be there..... do you actually think she would leave you???

 

I know she is looking down on me. and she will always be in my heart

 

she's not looking down on you. she's right beside you guiding you. right beside you. i promise.

 

I am sure she is. thanks

 

np. but dont thank me. i just know it and see it. she is right there. i KNOW that so dont thank the messenger. just realize she is there.

 

My grandma is a man. She has linebacker shoulders, smokes pall mall unfiltered, drinks scotch neat, and used to be a truck driver. She slapped me in the mouth when she found out that I had to drop out of collage because of a difficult pregnancy.

God, I love that woman so much.

I stood really close to this woman in the supermarket the other day, 'cause she smelled just like her. She caught me. lol I was so embarassed. When I told her why, she sprayed her perfume on my purse so I could huff in secret.

That's not weird, is it? lol

 

awww not weird. it's cute. i love women who are so secure in themselves that they are amazing ladies by learning enough to not give a fuck how they are percieved, that's word.

grammas pawn btw!!! they are really the best.. lots of them seriously kick ass.