Hey, I think I'm in a bit of a dilemma here...I've been writing aesthetic/narrative, like poetry and stories, for a long, long time and I've been making alot of music for quite a while too. The only thing I really want to do in life is pursue something in literature or music, but I am incredibly self conscious. I just can't show people my work...I've only showed one person and she was a long-term girlfriend. She said she loved my stuff but her views were probably biased But anyway, the thing I'm getting at here is I'm too afraid to show anyone my work incase they don't like it, or they see me differently. I know for a fact that once someone shows their 'poetry', views change drastically. And they will with the people I hang out with and in the place I am... It really pisses me off because I know I'm good to some degree, but I just can't do it!...This has really been bothering me for a while, so I thought I'd just say it somewhere, it might help. I just really want to establish myself as a writer/musician before it's too late. And another thing that doesn't help is when I think of all this stuff I usually dismiss myself as a pretentious twat. Is anyone else like this?
I can guarantee you that even if you were widely acclaimed as the finest musician or writer in the world, not everyone would like your stuff. so taking that into account, even if your stuff is great there's gonna be people who don't like it, right? if you're worried about showing your work to your friends because they might not like it, why not take it elsewhere and show it to complete strangers? you'll also be able to get better feedback that way because no one is going to worry about hurting your feelings. at the end of the day, your aspiration is to be a performer, but you don't want (dare?) to perform. get over this hurdle early on! I bet there's a vast number of people who have let their own fears and insecurities get in the way of doing what they really wanted. if this is who you are, why try to be someone else?
Yeah! I've done that actually, set up this poetry page on Bebo under a fake name. As for who I am, I wouldn't even say it's to perform, I just want to be creative and have fun doing it!
