so, i'm pretty sure that I'm trans. I live/look like a female and I couldn't do anything about that for about a year (catholic school that I really like), and I guess I want some confirmation before I would do anything anyway. I kind of got the idea about a year ago, but I just forgot about it because I (incorrectly) assumed that you shouldn't be trans and be attracted to men. Recently I started thinking seriously about it, and I've done some research, tried binding (my cup is a DD. It sucks), and wearing guy clothes (I have a brother who wears the same size ), but only around the house when no one is around, because I don't want anyone to figure me out. I think that I identify as male (and that would explain why I got so mad that no one realized I should be a boy scout), but I'm kind of scared of that. I'm super shy, and I think that helpful salespeople are pretty much Satan's gift to man. I can barely order comfortably at a fast food place, much less try and pass as a different gender than I look right now. Sometimes I think it would be easier just to let myself be female and, i dunno, try and ignore myself for the rest of my life or something. I pretty much spent my childhood androgynously, and then in middle school my mom took me to some shrink type person who basically taught me how to be female, from buying makeup to wearing cute clothes and all of that stuff. I still don't like it very much, but I've gotten used to doing girl things now, and sometimes I think it would be easier than learning to be male again. Then I think about what it would be like living my whole life thinking, 'when is this going to be over?'. I also read a post elsewhere about a girl who thought she was ftm and then went to a psychologist or something similar who told her that she was female. I'm kind of afraid of something like that happening. I kind of want some advice on first, what to do for the year i'm going to have to hide this, whether it's worth it, and anything you think might be helpful
I don't have any solid advice for you, since I have never been in your situation. But, if you need an ear, I am a good listener, and don't judge. *hugs*
Don't let anyone tell you who you are.Look inside yourself and I'm sure you'll figure things out. Also,can you do me a favor?I'm a MtF hopeful,and I'd like to know a bit more about a womans daily life.Thank you much!
