I don't even know what im doing anymore.

Okay i've been out of this relationship over a year now... and as of the last months past by i havent thought much of her and felt almost no feelings for her...also my drug issues got a lot better i wasent even tempted to touch anything other than weed including painkillers...Now in the past few weeks or so i havent been able to get her out of my head...i just did a bunch of vikes ... i droped 3 hits of pure liquid LSD in both of my eyes last weekend...not to mention i cant even sleep at night and when i do finnally pass out i wake up spooning with my pillow or my cat...what should i do...and dont say lay off the drugs...this is deffenatly causing me to do drugs...appreciate any feed back...Peace