Depression

oooh baby... harder.

 

This popcorn tastes like motor oil... how rare.

 

I don't want to go on any medicine- it does hit me pretty often, I just stay in my room and listen to music, then again I really have nothing else to do. I can usually make myself feel better, but my mom knows I have it and doesn't do anything about it. I've only thought about suicide once, but I didn't think of how I would do it- that was probably rock bottom for me, I went to the bathroom in the middle of class and stared at myself in the mirror and cried. I believe lots of love and affection and hugs can make anyone feel better

 

I like hugs... I always ask people in my art class if they want a hug or if they want to dance... for some reason the girls will do it but the guys are too self-concious.... hahaha.

 

I would dance with you.

 

thats what everyone did in my drama class it was so nice to get hugs everyday, sometimes back rubs! i loved that class

 

I'd be honored.

::break it down::

 

I know... it's so awesome. I have to take Art Foundation for a semester before photography... blegh. I can take photos as it is. I want to take drama next semester.

 

drama was awesome. after that class i wasn't shy anymore. now i'd do the most outrageous things in front of everyone and not care

 

it may sound strange but ive used my depression over the years as a means of creativity

 

thats not strange, i do it too...i dont have a lot of good art though. drawing is the only thing i do when it comes to creativity...i dont write.
if i had better supplies like paint and canvas and really good pens, i would have art good enough to put on the internet or somethin

 

i'd love to have a canvas, one day i will!

 

what werks fer me is a nature hike, find out whats ailin' the soul.... change it, if that dont werk.... natural herbs could help... for a short while anyway... call a friend... see what theyre doin'

 

Haven't we all?

 

im depressed most of the time, but i just drink a lot. dont like any anti-depressants. just some good old beer and weed is enough for me to be happy.

 

stop taking prozac.

 

I should start doing coke. Coke is awesome. I've been doing this fucking diet coke crap since I was 11... I haven't had a regular coke since.

 

Well everyobdy else already said what I was going to...

Oh well.