Well my childhood has now officially been ripped away.

My definition of excelling is getting all A's, getting a good job, settling down with a nice man, and living comfortably while saving enough to continue the lifestyle in retirement. I swear last year I had a 98 on an interim report in History. I was actually disappointed because on wrong answer from a test question kept me from a perfect hundred. I was happy but unhappy at the same time at how close I had come but failed at the same time.

 

Cheer up. Look at it this way. By the time you graduate college it'll be like 2013, and like half the people on the internet say the world'll be over by then and your creditors will be radioactive monster. But they probably won't care about getting your debt back. :biggrin:

 

Damn 8 months after I hit drinking age I have to die. I hate the idea of having a set course for the rest of my life. It gives me security but i'm afraid i'll get bored. I've kind of always wanted to do bigger things. I've wanted to write a novel. Present a speech. Change the world. I want to be a humanitarian. I want to negotiate peace between countries. I want people to remember me. That's the only way I can think of to because god knows I can't act, dance, or sing.

 

Well... it's not impossible.

But even if you're remembered. You'll still be dead. Try to be happy with the time you have. :biggrin:

 

I know I am happy. I try to enjoy life. After all it has been good to me. Why not show it a little gratitude. I would write or e-mail but I don't think life has an address. I think i've been watching too many television dramas. Like this one totally fundy christian after school special type movie I caught one night on the local christian channel at like two in the morning about this devout christian girl who gets teen pregnant. I'm talking cheesy to.

 

What's stopping you?...

 

You know that's a really really good question that I wish I had an answer to.

 

You sound exactly like me at 17.

And I still think that way, and I'm working on it.

You just need to jump and believe in yourself. Cheesy but true.

 

No really, cheer up. You may not have to wait that long. If the Cern LHC goes awry we could all be dead by Christmas. Live each day like it's your last. Life is actually very short unless you're unhappy. Then it seems to go on and on and on...

 

if your grades are as good as i'm guessing they are, there's likely to be some scholarship money there for you too

 

I try to and don't worry i'm all about being cheesy.